tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36885169757493898252024-02-06T22:57:04.220-05:00Bittersweet ~ Rekindling Life after Suicide LossRekindling Life After Suicide LossBeth Saadatihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02714466010215082644noreply@blogger.comBlogger29125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688516975749389825.post-73677174298718886852022-02-24T20:32:00.008-05:002022-02-25T09:34:33.259-05:0020 Seconds of Courage: How a Simple Yes Lessens Grief<p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"> <span style="font-family: verdana;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 10pt;">by Beth Saadati</span></i></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><img alt="Person, Woman, Girl, Human, Pleasure" height="451" src="https://cdn.pixabay.com/photo/2015/09/22/15/27/person-951876__340.jpg" style="max-height: 2469px; max-width: 3508px;" width="640" /> <br /></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I yanked the iPhone from my ear and
stared at the screen. A long pause ensued before the chat resumed.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“He’s coming . . . <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">when</i>?” I asked.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">My middle daughter answered matter-of-factly.
“The Friday before Thanksgiving.”</span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“How long does he want to stay?”</span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“Something like ten days.”</span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“But your brother will be on a camping
trip and at school half that time. And you’ll be away at college until Tuesday.
That leaves just Dad and me.”</span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“He said that’s okay.”</span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">My words vanished. I couldn’t imagine a
college sophomore from Germany, whom I hardly knew, would ever want to. This
was all so unexpected. Absolutely awkward. Wildly weird. Kind of, well, crazy.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Then again, I had extended the
spontaneous invitation. My offer had been one hundred twelve percent sincere.
But when he laughed and instantly replied with, “Thanks, but I could never
accept that,” I figured this year’s Thanksgiving would be my family’s new
normal—laced with the same deathly silence of my oldest daughter’s absence I’d
endured for the past eight holiday seasons without her here. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“Lukas might be miserable the first
five days,” I finally told Christa, “but tell him he’s welcome to come.”</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><span></span></span></span></p><a name='more'></a><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Christa said she’d give him the message
then ended the call. I hustled to the pantry, withdrew a yardstick, and
measured the five-brick-high fireplace hearth. If I hoisted my short
five-foot-two stature up on it, I would match Lukas’s six-foot-six height.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I did. </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="color: #2f5597; font-size: 12pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-style-textfill-fill-alpha: 100.0%; mso-style-textfill-fill-color: #2F5597; mso-style-textfill-fill-colortransforms: lumm=75000; mso-style-textfill-fill-themecolor: accent5; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">That new perspective changed the whole room</span></b><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">* * *</span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The doorbell rang an hour earlier than
I’d anticipated which, for someone who always runs late, spelled d-i-s-a-s-t-e-r.
I hadn’t finished prepping supper, I didn’t have myself together, my house wasn’t
exactly clean. But when Lukas beamed a huge smile through my front door’s tall glass
pane, I decided to let him in.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Alone at home, I’d anticipated the
initial greeting would be painstakingly awkward. It should have been. Except
Lukas doesn’t know a stranger, so he immediately launched into story-telling
mode, dramatically sharing his latest collegiate adventures in his distinct
German accent with delightfully loud vocal chords. Before my stomach started to
hurt from laughing hard and my neck began to ache from looking up at this
gentle giant, I offered to show Lukas around my small home.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">We started in the front room where we
stood. The wood shelf above the piano held a few large, framed photos—the last professional
pictures a JCPenney photographer took of the three of my kids together. Lukas
had befriended Christa. He’d met Josh, her younger brother. The puzzled look on
his face indicated he knew nothing about Jenna, their older sister.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Of
course</span></i><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">, I thought.<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> It’s a tough subject to bring up. Christa hasn’t told him.</i></span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“That’s Jenna,” I said, as I pointed to
the photo. “Christa had an older sister.”</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Hoping that might be enough for the
moment, I turned down the short hallway. Lukas followed. I showed him Josh’s
room, which he’d be using. Then Christa’s room, with its Dr. Who and Star Wars
paraphernalia, bobble-head collection, and Marvel posters. A few minutes later
we crossed the hall to the room that was mine and my husband’s. And my heart
started racing.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">On three of the walls, my friend Sam
had mounted a double layer of six-foot shelves to display a series of 5x7
photos—one for each year from birth to present—of each of my children.
Christa’s went from birth to age nineteen, Josh’s from birth to age sixteen,
Jenna’s from birth to age fourteen. Lukas stared. I would have to explain.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“Jenna died when she was fourteen,” I
said. “That’s why the photos end there. I’m sorry Christa didn’t tell you.”</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Lukas turned away from the
framed headshots to glance at me.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“I hope you don’t mind me asking,” he
said, “but how did she die?”</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I paused, trying to decide how much to
say. “We didn’t see it coming. She ended her own life. So, suicide.”</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The happy chatter between us ceased. Lukas
nodded his head. Tears pooled in his eyes.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“I was bullied in Germany,” he said,
“so I might understand. But I’m so sorry.” Then Lukas bent down and hugged my
shoulder—</span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="color: #2f5597; font-size: 12pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-style-textfill-fill-alpha: 100.0%; mso-style-textfill-fill-color: #2F5597; mso-style-textfill-fill-colortransforms: lumm=75000; mso-style-textfill-fill-themecolor: accent5; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">a sign that I hoped
meant he wasn’t afraid to stay in my home, do life with my family, and embrace
our difficult story</span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">.</span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></b></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">That sign proved true.</span></span></p><span style="font-family: verdana;">
</span><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Despite declaring he should be studying
for exams, throughout the days that followed Lukas drew my husband—whom he’d
never previously met—and me into engaging conversation. He told jokes and
stories. He shared about life growing up in Austria and Germany. He rode with
me to surprise Christa when I picked her up from Anderson University—and
uttered no complaint when she greeted him with a fifty-pound box to carry.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Lukas helped me prepare food in the
kitchen and joined in our Thanksgiving celebration. He played Settlers of Catan
with the family and countless hours of Wii Lego Star Wars with Josh. He even achieved
something Christa has never been able to do—convince Josh to spend a few hours
at Upstate Swing (because, as Lukas says, asking a girl to dance “only takes twenty seconds of
courage”). Josh arrived home smiling and, since that
fateful day, has gone back to swing dance every Tuesday he’s been free.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Lukas also offered to cook my family a
delicious homemade schnitzel and German potato salad meal, which included
shopping at Lidl while FaceTiming his mom in Germany for instructions about
which ingredients to purchase. (Such a brave act, given the fact he’d only
practiced his culinary skills in the kitchen—making a lasagna following a
YouTube tutorial—one time before that!)</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">There were more memorable moments. The
three teens road tripped to Carowinds. Our mutt, Max, who adored his new friend,
vulnerably flopped over on his back for a tummy rub whenever Lukas appeared. And,
when I specifically asked, Lukas smiled and kindly informed me that, yes, he
could easily see the half-inch of dust on the top of the refrigerator.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">But the biggest thing is this: for the
duration of his stay, Lukas soaked my home with an abundance of laughter.
He discussed deep topics and entertained us with lighthearted stories. He felt
like family. </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="color: #2f5597; font-size: 12pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-style-textfill-fill-alpha: 100.0%; mso-style-textfill-fill-color: #2F5597; mso-style-textfill-fill-colortransforms: lumm=75000; mso-style-textfill-fill-themecolor: accent5; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">Somehow, his presence altered the atmosphere.</span></b><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">On Sunday one of Lukas’s Coastal
Carolina University friends arrived to start the three-hour drive back to South
Carolina’s Myrtle Beach campus. I said goodbye, and expected to return to the
sadness of the holiday season, with the vivid memories that accompany the
trauma surrounding the second day of January.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Except . . . I didn’t. Lukas had filled
my home with joy and, </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="color: #2f5597; font-size: 12pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-style-textfill-fill-alpha: 100.0%; mso-style-textfill-fill-color: #2F5597; mso-style-textfill-fill-colortransforms: lumm=75000; mso-style-textfill-fill-themecolor: accent5; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">inside me, something had shifted</span></b><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">.
For the first time since Christmas 2012, I was able to decorate the tree (with
bread-dough ornaments made by my two daughters) and fireplace. I positioned
wreathes on windows. I listened to some Christmas music while I baked a batch
of sugar cookies. And, at long last, I had the capacity to celebrate Emmanuel—Our.
God. With. Us.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"></span></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEisJ5xY-Scqt83hODrXRodce0VjhTQsDZAhj6hJ7QVht8cBH28B8x-Al0ToO90Dr6-LpJkToLsmsWTft7QTdOIpSkeVpyPw6XrwgxGJmoHAsZzN-oC1MoaO-5ux7WgJmG8vMQR4EX3L6nKoHoV0X_ZsDuhnmr4_GtjdQe_Xzd6wYNIXRMH9nPkSbAkLRg=s640" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="480" data-original-width="640" height="480" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEisJ5xY-Scqt83hODrXRodce0VjhTQsDZAhj6hJ7QVht8cBH28B8x-Al0ToO90Dr6-LpJkToLsmsWTft7QTdOIpSkeVpyPw6XrwgxGJmoHAsZzN-oC1MoaO-5ux7WgJmG8vMQR4EX3L6nKoHoV0X_ZsDuhnmr4_GtjdQe_Xzd6wYNIXRMH9nPkSbAkLRg=w640-h480" width="640" /></a></span></div><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgos30j_JePeE57fY7kwyRmrYJ8y2B00ogb9sSHuqooZ_8ysvx9Y2-wr1TX5O4GGw5GgQKg7VSiZumpZwKiyMuQZ8C-GbbBVb1epeEgpMfC3kOmxyTL4_0TBJATNCmlPiFVQ_D-jPYgodom9dO3EV723ejM6urFVnp-5YRekWsKzKJrP6yIHYNl-NZ8Xw=s640" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="480" data-original-width="640" height="480" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgos30j_JePeE57fY7kwyRmrYJ8y2B00ogb9sSHuqooZ_8ysvx9Y2-wr1TX5O4GGw5GgQKg7VSiZumpZwKiyMuQZ8C-GbbBVb1epeEgpMfC3kOmxyTL4_0TBJATNCmlPiFVQ_D-jPYgodom9dO3EV723ejM6urFVnp-5YRekWsKzKJrP6yIHYNl-NZ8Xw=w640-h480" width="640" /></a></div><br /></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjh4Yo9azXG8hRE3W3W4SMyIaktccht__F-lEaXL2A1URa8yXeV-wj7CeaRIg4OaRrg4SLPqYLzilJvOQcTfy0ujDHxtKQqwbzRipJ88sFwLn4kXyiBbYH5lOSVmwud6-UqJ17lGDxYnZaXJaNtRKk7KYNRgUZnyrRb6HVXPrLKxyPTrp_Z39vYrdSEpQ=s640" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="480" data-original-width="640" height="480" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjh4Yo9azXG8hRE3W3W4SMyIaktccht__F-lEaXL2A1URa8yXeV-wj7CeaRIg4OaRrg4SLPqYLzilJvOQcTfy0ujDHxtKQqwbzRipJ88sFwLn4kXyiBbYH5lOSVmwud6-UqJ17lGDxYnZaXJaNtRKk7KYNRgUZnyrRb6HVXPrLKxyPTrp_Z39vYrdSEpQ=w640-h480" width="640" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Since my daughter’s death, I’ve
struggled to not isolate. To let friends and family into my story, my hurt, and
my home. To reply to emails and answer the phone. To simply say yes to friends
who extend <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">and unexpectedly accept</i>
invitations.</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="color: #2f5597; font-size: 12pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-style-textfill-fill-alpha: 100.0%; mso-style-textfill-fill-color: #2F5597; mso-style-textfill-fill-colortransforms: lumm=75000; mso-style-textfill-fill-themecolor: accent5; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">The yes isn’t easy. But
almost every time I give it, I’m glad I did. Because something special takes
place. Connection happens that changes my perspective.</span></b><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">And to think that saying yes to letting
others enter into the grief each of us carries really only takes about twenty
seconds of courage.</span></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif;">This <a href="http://carolroper.org/2022/02/building-strong-homes-one-story-at-a-time-47/">blog post</a> originally appeared on the
Building Strong Homes website at <span class="MsoHyperlink"><a href="http://www.carolroper.org">www.carolroper.org</a></span>.</span></i></span><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif; font-size: 10pt;"><span style="font-size: small;">You can listen to the accompanying Building Strong Homes podcast episode, “<a href="http://carolroper.org/2022/02/building-strong-homes-one-story-at-a-time-46/">An Unfinished Story: Losing a Daughter to Suicide</a>,” which tells Beth’s and Jenna’s story, by clicking this title link. </span><br /></span></i></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: verdana;"><span style="font-size: small;"></span></span></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgZXIU_ry2_vYSSOhD6lgLe86289bxwBFi7p7NP1JDyPmf6WLkSOSL_ZCzi0PBji79Zn4gHjgx7wGjNx3K_WUkV22wl-gGYNn9fz5IQXq5l5xehJrACA4tkHQ66CuuSqtpd8WjKnp7eH_IKem4aiR7JnZSLLySozgBpAYFu9Q68-Waa_JnFPbe7dX0FcQ=s1231" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1084" data-original-width="1231" height="176" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgZXIU_ry2_vYSSOhD6lgLe86289bxwBFi7p7NP1JDyPmf6WLkSOSL_ZCzi0PBji79Zn4gHjgx7wGjNx3K_WUkV22wl-gGYNn9fz5IQXq5l5xehJrACA4tkHQ66CuuSqtpd8WjKnp7eH_IKem4aiR7JnZSLLySozgBpAYFu9Q68-Waa_JnFPbe7dX0FcQ=w200-h176" width="200" /></a></div><i>Beth
is a high school English teacher, wife, and mom to two spectacular
teens. She likes to spend time with family and friends, indulge in a
Chicago-style mushroom pizza or homemade blackberry pie, and, with
shameful inconsistency, lace up her Nikes for a long-distance run. In
the aftermath of her beloved firstborn's suicide, she shares story at
bethsaadati.com to offer insight, understanding, and hope--with those
who weather the storms of suicidal thoughts and suicide loss...and with
those who simply know how bittersweet life can sometimes be.</i><span style="font-size: small;"> <br /></span><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; margin-bottom: 0in;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span></i></p>
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<![endif]--><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“Listen
to the people who love you. Believe that they are worth living for even when
you don’t believe it. Seek out the memories depression takes away and project
them into the future. Be brave; be strong; take your pills. Exercise because
it’s good for you even if every step weighs a thousand pounds. Eat when food
itself disgusts you. Reason with yourself when you have lost your reason.”</span></i></b></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt;">~Andrew Solomon, <i><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;">The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression</span></i></span></p><p> <br /></p><p class="MsoNormal"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 10pt; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">by Beth Saadati, with
guest songwriter Heidi Haase</span></i><i><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-style: normal; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-style: italic; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;"> </span></i>
</p><p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="color: #2f5496; font-size: 12pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">The deep sadness—sometimes hours, sometimes days,
sometimes weeks of depression—began when a beloved daughter died by suicide.</span></b><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;"> </span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;">It’s lingered seven years. Although the intensity of the sadness has decreased, intermittent waves of grief still crash, still threaten to
pull me under, still leave me grasping for a lifeline to hold onto while I wait
for each wave to break and recede. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><span face=""Verdana", sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt;"> </span>
</p><p class="MsoNormal"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;">During
one severe surge a couple years ago, my lifeline was a song—a song written and
recorded by Heidi Haase, a beautiful family friend whose personality, character,
and appearance reminded me more of my oldest daughter than any other
high-school student I’d taught. I played the song again and again. I let the
words sink in.</span><span face=""Verdana", sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt;"></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="color: #2f5496; font-size: 12pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">And I wished Jenna also could have heard and taken them to heart.</span></b></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;">So today,
on</span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;"> <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">World Suicide Prevention Day 2020</b></span><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;">, Heidi and I extend that
lifeline to you—for <i>any</i> day of the year you may need it, for every wave that tries to
drown you, for all the pain friends and family cannot see.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;">Reason
with yourself. </span><span face=""Verdana", sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt;"></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;">Listen.
Believe. Be brave.</span><span face=""Verdana", sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt;"></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;">You’re
not alone.</span><span face=""Verdana", sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt;"></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="color: #2f5496; font-size: 14pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">You’re stronger than you know.</span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana", sans-serif" style="color: #2f5496; font-size: 14pt;"></span></b></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span face=""Verdana", sans-serif"> </span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;">With
love,</span><i><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; font-style: normal; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-style: italic; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;"></span></i><i><span style="font-family: "Freestyle Script"; font-size: 22pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;"> </span></i></p><p class="MsoNormal"><i><span style="font-family: "Freestyle Script"; font-size: 22pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;">Beth</span></i><i><span style="font-family: "Freestyle Script"; font-size: 22pt; font-style: normal; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-style: italic; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi;"></span></i>
</p><p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 16pt; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"></span></i></b></p><p><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"></b></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><iframe allowfullscreen="" class="BLOG_video_class" height="266" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/DvcWDUaG4DQ" width="320" youtube-src-id="DvcWDUaG4DQ"></iframe></b></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><i> </i></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>note: Please view the YouTube song video in the web version if it's missing here in the mobile version</i></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">.</span><br /></b></div><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span><a name='more'></a></span></i></b><p></p><p></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 14pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> “Stronger
Than You Know”</span></b></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">copyright
Heidi Haase</span></i></p><p> </p><p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"> <span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">It’s a long day when
you get home</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">And you find yourself</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Wondering does it
really matter</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">If you stay or go</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The ground around you
is sinking</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Everything in life is
changing</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">It all seems so far
away</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You gotta get up</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Gotta find your way
back</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I promise that you’re
loved</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">And you can take it</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Don’t you give up</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I know that you can
make it</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You’re stronger than
you know</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Don’t you give up</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I promise you can
make it</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You’re stronger than
you know</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">It’s a long year when
you look back</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">And you see how far
you’ve been</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Though it’s been hard</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You’re just glad</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">That you didn’t let
it end</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Because life is now
worth living</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Every day you see
more clearly</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Even if some days you
still tell yourself</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You gotta get up</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Gotta find your way
back</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I promise that you’re
loved</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">And you can take it</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Don’t you give up</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I know that you can
make it</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You’re stronger than
you know</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Don’t you give up</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I promise you can
make it</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You’re stronger than
you know</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I’m talking to myself</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Everything that I was</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Everything that I
thought</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Just a year ago</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">A letter to myself</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Of everything that I
know</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">All the places I go</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">It’s worth all the
pain</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You gotta get up</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Gotta find your way
back</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I promise that you’re
loved</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">And you can take it</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Don’t you give up</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I know that you can
make it</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You’re stronger than
you know</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">If you could see me
now</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You’d know that you
can make it</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I’m stronger than you
know</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">If you could see me
now</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Look you made it</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You’re stronger than
you know</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Every day is a page</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You just keep on
turning</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The story of your
life</span></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span face=""Verdana",sans-serif" style="font-size: 10pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></p>
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make it</span></p>
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sophomore studying to get a degree in Bible and Humanities. She loves music,
poetry, and hiking. Writing music has been one of her biggest passions since
she was young. Heidi is thankful that her music has been able to encourage
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</xml><![endif]--><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 10pt;">by Beth Saadati</span></i></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;">“What I would give for a couple of
days—a couple of days.”</span></i><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"> </span></i></p><p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;">~</span></i><span style="font-size: 12pt;">TobyMac, “<a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eSV-pRGbg4k">21 Years</a>”</span><span style="font-size: 12pt;"> </span></p><p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhp3CdTF0ZkNuPt3L1MVcqUcPkdJ80Ri5ncqjKDU2dkSr47OQM6m2gHKetOtBJx9oqHstq_cm1HqQuo_kn_zkSY3Mk9GDYBTSUQkwyHJctsx9sGkUcIOUbrDtPuV2MvLPXypz78js75bIKg/s2000/1.+Jenna-4.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2000" data-original-width="2000" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhp3CdTF0ZkNuPt3L1MVcqUcPkdJ80Ri5ncqjKDU2dkSr47OQM6m2gHKetOtBJx9oqHstq_cm1HqQuo_kn_zkSY3Mk9GDYBTSUQkwyHJctsx9sGkUcIOUbrDtPuV2MvLPXypz78js75bIKg/s640/1.+Jenna-4.jpg" /></a></div> <p></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Today.
Thursday. August thirteenth. You were born on another Thursday, another August's same date. You were <i>finally</i> here, making that day lovely. And good. And
right.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 1:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> I schedule my first-ever
salon appointment at the beginning of this year. The price is outlandish. But I
want to see your friend. She’s grown up. Beautiful. She cuts my hair’s broken
ends. We talk about you, we talk about her. She says her fiancé
is wonderful, they’re buying a house, they're planning a wedding. An invitation never arrives. I don’t
understand why. Later I'll learn the ceremony was small, private, only for family. Maybe
it’s for the best, because you should have stood by her side in the bridal party. And I would have cried—imagining
what could have been—and wrecked the special event. </span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 2:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> Your second friend
supports and encourages your brother and me. After fighting to overcome unforeseen health challenges that stump the country's top MDs, he takes the MCAT. He will study to be a doctor. He’ll follow your dream.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 3:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> I see your third
friend at a graduation party. She approaches. She radiates joy. For a long time
we talk about her college, her graduate-school plans, her study of art therapy
as a tool for grief counseling, the great guy she’s dating. Later her dad tells
us she visited your grave where she yells, cries, and finds more healing.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 4:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> Your fourth friend drives
two hours, unexpectedly stops by for supper. We eat. He stays until nine. He
talks about the hardship, the struggle, the reality of life. He hasn’t
forgotten. He speaks your name. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 5:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> My phone pings. I
check the text. An ultrasound picture with two words and two question marks:
Guess what?? I burst with gladness for your fifth friend and his wife. I’m
touched that he privately told me before publicly announcing the news. I’ll
never receive a surprise ultrasound photo from you. </span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"><span></span></span></b></p><a name='more'></a><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 6:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> Your sixth friend
majors in writing. Graduates with accolades. Shows me how to access databases
to do graduate research. Offers to read chapters for the young-adult novel. You
made her feel included. Now she will help craft your fictionalized story. </span><p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 7:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> It’s been several
years since I’ve seen your seventh friend. I email, invite him to hang out with the family. He doesn’t reply. The disconnection hurts. But who can
blame him? When memories are too painful, even friends sometimes stay away to
survive. </span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 8:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> I log into Facebook.
Someone sends a message. Your eighth friend opens her heart. Says she misses
you profoundly. Says you’re a part of her life in the milestone moments. And I
wonder: for reasons I’ll never understand, were you so afraid sh<i>e </i>didn't like you that you couldn’t see your
classmate really was your friend?</span><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 9:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> You never had any
opportunity to meet the newest, the ninth. He’s authentic. Courageous. A treasured
friend of our family. I call and leave a birthday message. Blurt what comes to
mind. Something about probably receiving 3074 well-wishes already, but we’re also
thinking of him. I berate myself for stating that outrageous numeral. At night
I see his post, notice the <a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/CDoenmHH4bI/">Instagram</a> and <a href="https://www.facebook.com/recklesslyalive/?eid=ARDrnitwHqait3PjQFFs2Td8R5mW3peSpohEeJ1xTNFNC1QNq3L-Q_pHBepgrvuCeRRXoVM03GuFf9u-">Facebook</a> totals almost equal the
number I spoke. So many so glad he stayed. You should be posting something
similar today. </span><span face="" style="color: #1f3864; font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 14pt; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 128;">Suicide didn’t have to
stop you from turning twenty-two.</span><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgji7mjR7QyIhWO1Q0RWWppQ_4q1qrNmhqV7AzhZOEx06UEfoomqWkUZg2-39-s0-dUXQAA9o_bHt4AUG5oG5AI-RGEKcLLD_MQp6-c5wLnR46NlgcejcTi6MUiJiNMHPpdGt7Sdr5I9Kow/s960/Sam+Birthday+Insta+Post.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="960" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgji7mjR7QyIhWO1Q0RWWppQ_4q1qrNmhqV7AzhZOEx06UEfoomqWkUZg2-39-s0-dUXQAA9o_bHt4AUG5oG5AI-RGEKcLLD_MQp6-c5wLnR46NlgcejcTi6MUiJiNMHPpdGt7Sdr5I9Kow/s640/Sam+Birthday+Insta+Post.jpg" /></a></div> <p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 10:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> Soon your sister
will turn eighteen. Graduate high school. Leave for college to major in
English, to edit, to teach. She’s one of the bravest young women I know. She cares
for things you left behind. She’ll help tell your story, critique chapters in
the book. She’s holding onto the memories.</span><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 11:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> Your brother is
fourteen. A freshman. The same age and grade you were. Growing up. Moving forward.
Achieving honors. Thriving most of the time. But after experiencing the
unexpected horror of that one night, I am still afraid.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 12:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> Your classmates
graduated from college in June. You should have virtually walked the stage too.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 13:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> Two weeks. Four
suicides. Four private messages. Not from strangers. From people I know. A Greenville
friend’s daughter lost a boyfriend. An Ohio high-school friend a brother. A
writer friend a neighbor. Chicago friends their twenty-year-old son. I watch
the virtual funeral. Hear them speak. Feel their pain. I have no answers, no
magic wand to undo the devastation, the permanent damage that’s been done.</span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span></b></p><p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 14:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> This week the
Bittersweet Blog has a thousand views from Hong Kong. Your death upturned one
small corner of the world. But this reminds me that suicide touches every
continent. It’s universal, infecting far more lives than Covid. It doesn’t have
to. </span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 15:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> One year. Forty
books. My master’s thesis? Communicating Difficult Truths: The Portrayal of
Death, Loss, and Grief in Contemporary Literature. The reading weighs heavy. I
tire of vicariously reliving others’ stories. And I hesitate to
share yet another post that repeats the same unchanging ending.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 16: </span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">I add intro photos to
my Facebook timeline. Choose two pictures of you. Seeing you with your brother
and sister makes me smile. Even though, in one sense, the reality is no longer
true.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 17:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> For three
summers I edit <a href="http://www.recklesslyalive.com/">Sam Eaton’s</a> book, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Recklessly
Alive: What My Suicide Attempt Taught Me About God and Living Life to the
Fullest</i>. I cry each time I do. How I wish this were your victorious story
too.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 18:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> How should we celebrate
your birthday? Bake a cake? Make a pie? Watch your favorite Avengers movie? Set
flowers on the grave? I don’t really know. Every option is simply a reminder
that you’re no longer around.</span><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> </span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 19:</span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;"> There are three days
of the year I have no idea how to handle. This is one. So I kick up the bass.
Repeat Pink’s cover of 4 Non Blondes’ “What’s Up,” Toby Mac’s “21 Years,” Hillsong
United’s “Good Grace.” My shoes pound pavement as I run. </span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Vignette 20: </span></b><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">The Amazon van
stops in front of the house. An envelope. A book. I turn first to the Author’s
Note and read <a href="http://www.sheilaoconnor.com/">Sheila O’Connor’s</a> words: “. . . I am seeking to fill the void
with story, to tell myself a tale that will make sense of what I’ve lost”
(256). The line resonates. It offers hope. And so I type out these twenty fragmented vignettes.</span></p>
<p><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">Today.
Thursday. August thirteenth. Waiting nine months for that other sacred Thursday, that same August date</span><span face="" style="font-family: "verdana", sans-serif; font-size: 10pt;">, seems short compared to eight birthdays
without you. We carry your light, your laughter, your story. But, if only you
hadn’t gone, this life could be a lot more right.</span> <br /></p><p></p><p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;">“Until the show is over, and you run
into my arms, </span></i></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;">God has you in heaven, but I have you in
my heart.” </span></i></p>
<p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;">~TobyMac, “<a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eSV-pRGbg4k">21 Years</a>”</span></p><p align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"> </span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2Uedrq91N7nArBbdMfQJzPA9yu3yu1tq-KBy37uaGI7DcfuQhCGAs-BepnNlEpHlqg8QDduyC_m9qdODs1FS5cFhk1ZDsbUN8hSZnDexszMNnDOmwKHTzOR52E6Ud5uZFYUS49xqtjrME/s1600/Beth+pinterest+2.jpg" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1084" data-original-width="1231" height="175" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2Uedrq91N7nArBbdMfQJzPA9yu3yu1tq-KBy37uaGI7DcfuQhCGAs-BepnNlEpHlqg8QDduyC_m9qdODs1FS5cFhk1ZDsbUN8hSZnDexszMNnDOmwKHTzOR52E6Ud5uZFYUS49xqtjrME/s200/Beth+pinterest+2.jpg" width="200" /></a></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i>Beth
is a high school English teacher, wife, and mom to two spectacular
teens. She likes to spend time with family and friends, indulge in a
Chicago-style mushroom pizza or homemade blackberry pie, and, with
shameful inconsistency, lace up her Nikes for a long-distance run. In
the aftermath of her beloved firstborn's suicide, she shares story at
bethsaadati.com to offer insight, understanding, and hope--with those
who weather the storms of suicidal thoughts and suicide loss...and with
those who simply know how bittersweet life can sometimes be.</i></span><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: left;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span> </span></p>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;">I can’t say I wasn’t
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">On
a chilly 65-degree early-October South Carolina evening—yes, chilly…my Northern
blood has turned Southern—a friend leaned in close during the high-school
football game. “I heard the marching band’s voice-over this week,” she said. “It’s
intense. It might be hard for you to listen to.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I
gave a faint smile, assured her I’d be fine, and buried the words in the back
of my brain. Why be afraid? In public—okay, pretty much anywhere, even at home
unless I’m alone—my guard stays up. I don’t get emotional. I protect my heart. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">The
following night, however, something changed. It happened at a different
high-school stadium, thirty minutes away. Scanning the scene like an anxious
teenager looking around a lunchroom for any familiar face, I climbed the
bleachers. The crowd contained no one I knew, but I spied an empty spot beside a
friendly looking couple. With repeated <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">excuse-me</i>’s,
I shimmied my way across a tightly-packed row of viewers and plopped down on
the concrete bench.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Next
to me sat an elderly white-haired man, beside him his pom-pom-waving wife. They
told me they’d come to watch their grandchildren perform. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">My teens’ grandma has never gotten to see my kids compete</i>, I
thought. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">She’s eight years in the nursing
home, ravaged by Alzheimer’s, unaware of who she is, being fed supper by their
grandpa as we speak. </i>I felt the familiar sting of absence but managed to
utter with full sincerity, “Your grandkids sure are blessed to have you here.”</span></div>
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nodded his agreement and asked, “Do you have a dollar?” An odd request to be
sure, but I rummaged through my purse. He extended one hand. I gave him the
bill. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Meticulously,
he folded it, creased it, transformed it with care. Then the origami artist
presented his creation—George Washington’s picture converted into a tiny
two-inch shirt. His eyes twinkled as he inquired, “How many kids do you have?”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It
shouldn’t have been hard to answer. This wasn’t calculus. But </span><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;">I mentally froze upon hearing the
innocently asked question I HATE</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">. My paralysis produced an awkward silence as
my panicked mind pondered: <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Two? Or three?
What should I say? </i>Finally I lied and betrayed. “Two,” I muttered. Sometimes
it’s easier not to explain. </span></div>
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or boys?” he asked. </span></div>
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I lied. “One of each.”</span></div>
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it to your daughter,” he said. “She’ll appreciate it more.” I offered a sad
smile, thanked him, and promised I would.</span></div>
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the announcer’s words belted over the gathered crowd. A hush followed as the
Class 5A Mauldin High School Marching Maverick Band positioned itself on the
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those who haven’t recently seen marching bands compete, let me explain. It’s
different than when I marched alto sax and mellophone in high school and college.
It’s even different than it was fifteen years ago. Today’s eight-minute performances
are laden with props, costumes, and special effects—enough to qualify as a
full-blown, mini-musical-theater show. </span></div>
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the bands shine in visual creativity, marching technicality, and, of course,
musicality, I equally appreciate the imagination, the behind-the-scenes service,
the long hours and sweat of many people working together to achieve a common
goal. But the best part? Today’s shows tell <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">stories</i>,
which makes watching them quite delightful. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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story concepts vary and, well, some of them, though precisely and magically
executed, tend to be rather strange. For example, there was a performance about
top-secret Area 51 and three squirmy gray aliens the military caged (<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">weird beyond words even though it earned
first place).</i> One about industrialization burning down the
birds-of-paradise homeland. One about a pinball game—accented by an inflatable
silver ball that wandered around the field (<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">confession:
I was so <s>distracted</s> entranced watching it roll, I never really saw that
band’s show</i>). And, my sorry-but-I’m-an-English-teacher favorite, a
retelling of Shakespeare’s <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Romeo and
Juliet</i>, except, in this odd version, the characters were—wait for it—<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">fish</i>! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Needless
to say, although the displayed artistry and musical talent delights and intrigues
me, I’d never been <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">moved</i> by any show
I’d seen. Momentarily enthralled and entertained? Definitely, and there’s value
in that <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">(as all of us who’ve been quarantined
by the coronavirus pandemic now know!</i>). But as far as life-changing takeaway
goes? Not exactly my experience. </span></div>
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the drum majors began their synchronized salute, I remembered what I frequently
forget: <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">I have a cell phone. Maybe I should
film this since my teens march on opposite sides of the field and I can’t keep
track of what both are doing or where they’re even at.</i> I removed it from my
back pocket and began to record.</span></div>
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row of wooden trestle tables with wheels spanned the length of the 50-yard
line. On top of the tables stood thirty color-guard girls dressed in sleeveless
mauve tops and off-white circle skirts. On each side of the tables, two
vertical rows of brass and woodwind players—outfitted with burgundy bicep-length
gloves, black pants, and sleeveless off-white tailcoats—knelt, heads bent, in straight lines. At the front of the field one girl, holding a feather
plume, wrote a letter at a table. Electronic speakers amplified the
synthesizer’s scratching sound of quill pen on paper. </span><br />
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the wind players moved in a ripple down the line and rose to their feet, the
color guard started its ballet choreography, large feather pens in hand. Then
the voice-over—prerecorded narration that intersperses short dialogue
throughout a routine—of a woman’s strong alto voice reading the letter began.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">For as long as I can remember, I hid my heart under the bed. My
mother said, “If you’re not careful, someone, somewhere, is gonna break it.” </span></b></div>
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marching band spread out in synch across the field. One guard girl, twirling a
sunset-colored flag, glided down the row of tables. At the end of the row, she
launched the poled fabric up into the air, spiraling it three breathtaking
times before the one who’d stood writing the letter expertly caught it.</span><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;"></span></div>
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words can’t break your bones, but they always found a way to hurt me. I let the
words of others define me so much that I found it impossible to stand up for
myself. How can you stand up for yourself when you don’t even know who you are?</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">The</span><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">opening
lines from X-Ambassador’s song “Unsteady” rang out through huge speakers:<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> “Hold on. Hold on to me. ‘Cause I’m a
little unsteady. A little unsteady…” </i>and I trembled at the piercing,
heart-rendered vocals. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">So
this was the story behind the show’s music, the theme so similar to words my
oldest daughter, Jenna, had penned seven years earlier in her suicide letter: </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">“To the peers at
school who bullied and hated on me (you know very well who you are), FYI, words
are painful, in case that never occurred to you. People’s feelings are not
something to be played with. Being kind, or even vaguely amiable, can literally
save a life.” </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I
recalled my friend’s gentle warning the night before. And I knew I was in
trouble.</span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;"></span></i></b></div>
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woodwinds formed a block to the right of the long row of tables; the brass,
shaped in arcs on the left, turned to face the audience. A rendition of
“Unsteady” burst forth from instruments while flags spun in the sky and the
band moved to the music in precisely choreographed visuals. </span></div>
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brass maneuvered into a new formation, the woodwinds repositioned tables in
strategic locations, the drumline made an impressive perfectly-rhythmed pass-through
move across the field, and the color-guard forcefully whirled rifles into the
air. Soon, the voice-over resumed:</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Everyone always asked, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”
When I said, “I’d like to be a writer,” they said, “Choose something
realistic.” </span></b></div>
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their voices became more and more deafening, the flow of words ceased, and the
lights of creativity turned off. I felt…broken.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;"></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">In
that moment, with those spoken words, my emotions frayed. Sentences from
Jenna’s lengthy parting letter—formed from haunting self-lies that had
whispered <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">your life isn’t worth much</i>—blazed
before my eyes. Her sentences had included five stabbing words: “I was an
insane <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">writer</i>.”<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> </i></span></div>
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story to share and the ability to tell it well. You should still be here</span></i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">, I silently replied.
Fingernails pressed into my palms as, shaken, I tearlessly cried.</span></div>
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the story on the field continued. First came a drumline feature, sticks dancing
in quick syncopated rhythm. Woodwinds executed eighth-note runs in small blocks,
clusters, and pods. Standing on table tops, the color guard tossed and caught
weapons. Around them, the band spanned the field in large diagonals and
performed a practiced series of leans and lunges, back marching, flutter steps
and lateral slides. (No need to know the terminology to picture the scene’s
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was stilled by the hypnotic power of sound and sight, stilled more by the quiet
realization that my seventeen-year-old daughter was playing her older sister’s
clarinet and my thirteen-year-old son was a month away from turning Jenna’s
parting age. As my hand cradled the little origami shirt, I thought </span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;">How
many days of this bittersweet can a heart take?</span></i></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Unfaithful. Ungraceful. Unloving. Each word somehow stings harder
than the rest, like a colony of bees swarming in my chest. </span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">Courageous we must be as we write and share our words. Fearless we
must be as we let them hear our voice.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Now I
wasn’t sure whose story the voice-over was telling. Despite hearing Jenna’s
narrative in it, maybe the challenge belonged to my still-living teens. Or, maybe
it was resonating with…me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">At the
center-front of the field, my son performed an expressive section feature with
the other mellophone players. Woodwinds echoed the melody. Worded banners
unfurled. Pastel swing flags rose victoriously in the air like large angel
wings to color the field. And the voice-over offered a hope-filled promise:<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 14.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-ascii-theme-font: major-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: major-latin; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-theme-font: major-latin;">Dear
unfaithful, I will teach you to be stronger. </span></b></div>
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ungraceful, I will teach you to forgive one another. </span></b></div>
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unloving, I will love you.</span></b></div>
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free movement, the swag of a chassé, and a sideways hop preceded the glorious sound
explosion of tightly clustered brass, woodwind, and percussion during the final
words of the voice-over:</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">To the broken:</span></b></div>
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you. I realized I am not broken, and neither are you. Regardless of what they
say or think about us, we are worth more than their ideas. </span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 14.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">I know this: Because I am loved, you are loved.</span></b></div>
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was also profound</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">.
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celebration of this epiphany moment, a clarinetist soloed, bending notes with
reverb in the high altissimo register while saxophones grooved behind him. Next,
the band swirled a formation which changed to lines, which morphed into a follow-the-leader waterfall pattern accompanied by a spectacular burst of sound. </span><br />
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seldom say this, but <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">literal </i>chills
swept down my spine. As the band played its final notes, five students—one of
them my daughter—clutched the edge of a rolled tarp at the front of the field
and hurriedly back-peddled to reveal an enormous banner that spanned twenty
yards. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Six
words were printed on it: </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;">To the Broken…You are Loved.</span></b><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;"></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Needless
to say, my protective, outwardly unemotional self was touched at its core. I
swallowed hard. Then my eyes leaked loads of pent-up tears as the crowd erupted in uproarious applause.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I’ve
replayed the video on my phone far more times than I can count. Maybe it’s
obsessive. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">(Alright, it is.)</i> But</span><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;"> what if the message that resonated
so deeply that October evening is a reminder I—or we—daily need?</span><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"></span></div>
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</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">When
the lying voices tell us our lives aren’t worth much.</span></div>
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we’re tempted to believe our voice doesn’t matter.</span></div>
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we receive a crushing medical diagnosis we never expected.</span></div>
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we clutch the hand of a loved one and watch them breathe their final breath.</span></div>
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we’re disappointed and betrayed.</span></div>
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all the loneliness, fear, and uncertainty of this world crashes in.</span></div>
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</span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">in
spite of this</span></i></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">,
we dare to hope and choose to face another day. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It’s
my story, it’s your story, it’s <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">ours</i>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">We’re
broken people living in a broken world, but </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;">we are loved</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">.</span></div>
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onto that truth, dear friends, and let it be enough.</span><br />
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pleasure, here’s the phone <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gKJDPg69Cic">video</a> of the performance I’ve watched a
conservatively estimated 357 times.</span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-size: 10.0pt; mso-ascii-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-hansi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Also, special thanks
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permission to include the beautiful voice-over transcription and photos from the
“A Letter to the Broken” show. </span></span></i></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>Beth is a high school English teacher, wife, and mom to two spectacular teens. She likes to spend time with family and friends, indulge in a Chicago-style mushroom pizza or homemade blackberry pie, and, with shameful inconsistency, lace up her Nikes for a long-distance run. In the aftermath of her beloved firstborn's suicide, she shares story at bethsaadati.com to offer insight, understanding, and hope--with those who weather the storms of suicidal thoughts and suicide loss...and with those who simply know how bittersweet life can sometimes be.</i></span><br />
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Beth Saadatihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02714466010215082644noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688516975749389825.post-4989045955701407102020-01-02T21:00:00.000-05:002020-01-03T12:58:37.489-05:00When the Memory of One Night Won't Go Away<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">January 2
started like any other day</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">—a welcomed return to structure and routine after two
weeks of winter break, with all the hope and promise that accompany a new year.
At 3:45 I naively wove through the high school car line to pick up my freshman
daughter, completely unaware the world I’d known was about to change. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">In
the backseat, Jenna chatted lightheartedly with a carpooled friend and recounted the day’s happenings. One
awkward moment peppered the list—circulated talk about a guy with a girlfriend
who’d asked Jenna to the I.B. Ball, even though she’d said no. “I always
attract drama,” Jenna declared. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">She
laughed it off then asked how many friends had emailed to say they planned to
come to a game night she’d host in three days. “You’re already up to fourteen,”
I replied. She smiled, seemingly happy with the news. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">On
the afternoon of January 2<sup>nd</sup>, Jenna waved no red flags. Her arrival
home was followed by a little time in her room, the customary change of
clothes, a request to go to her “thinking spot” by the stream as long
as she returned in time to finish AP world history homework before attending youth
group. Without hesitation I agreed and returned to editing a friend’s novel—the
chapter in which the villain appears. Unsuspecting fingers clicked laptop keys.
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Time
ticked by. Darkness replaced light. Jenna never arrived.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">January 2
ended like no other night.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> A long search. A police interrogation. Friends
thoughtfully picking up my two young kids. Sirens, flashing lights, yellow
caution tape. Fear of abduction, fear unlike anything I’ve ever known,
concluding with a friend’s gentle delivery of eleven terrible words: “Your
daughter is dead. It appears she took her own life.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Then
a wailing of “no” that didn’t sound like my voice. A sleepless night. A suicide
letter to read, a funeral to plan, painful decisions to make. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">The
morning before visitation, I sat in the funeral-home parking lot with a family friend—a
friend who wanted to say his goodbye privately before the evening crowd came in.
We sat in the Accent for over an hour, neither of us ready to see the beautiful
girl who, in this world, would no longer smile, laugh, or open her eyes. He
glanced towards my seat, said he’d known someone who’d walked through
trauma and was never the same, said he didn’t want me to end up that way. I internalized
the challenge, assured him I’d be okay.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I
wanted to believe I could and would but don’t know that I am. Jesus’ words in John
10:10 still resonate: “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I
came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” Nevertheless, I live
with unanswered questions. I fight to feel joy. </span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">A daughter’s decision to end her life completely changed mine.</span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It
seems impossible that, as of tonight, seven years have passed. My middle
daughter, now three years older than her big sister and best friend, is the first
sibling to tour college campuses and drive. My youngest son, fourteen, has
reached Jenna’s age. Similar in personality, I’m afraid when I see moments of
teen struggle. I try hard to be brave. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Seven
long years. I’ve lived without Jenna for half the time I delighted in having her
here. People talk about the “new normal,” but I’m not convinced it exists. I
miss her every day. Her absence still doesn’t seem right. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">So,
what to do with the replaying of memories, the emotions still surrounding one
night? I don’t really know. But I believe the motto on the South Carolina
license plate: While I Breathe, I Hope. I share the story I’m left to carry,
despite fear people have grown weary of hearing. And, to anyone who will
listen, I’ll continue to say, “</span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Please stay. Hope remains</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">.” <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><br />
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<i style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgd5j-TcJLDFhZWWAkQd81qks4O6nKOP9vAypJ0RyOOIipOn7DGUXKDTk7KU8Wa2ncitGuzfsWK7tg33mkbv80ZHdPAp5lPU4h-9XZJUFO0i2jmam2jDAwhb_hj7E1JSU489un2FumoqGZ6/s1600/Beth+Pinterest+Headshost+.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1084" data-original-width="1231" height="175" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgd5j-TcJLDFhZWWAkQd81qks4O6nKOP9vAypJ0RyOOIipOn7DGUXKDTk7KU8Wa2ncitGuzfsWK7tg33mkbv80ZHdPAp5lPU4h-9XZJUFO0i2jmam2jDAwhb_hj7E1JSU489un2FumoqGZ6/s200/Beth+Pinterest+Headshost+.jpg" width="200" /></a><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Beth is a high school English teacher, wife,
and mom to two spectacular teens. She likes to spend time with family and
friends, indulge in a Chicago-style mushroom pizza or homemade blackberry pie,
and, with shameful inconsistency, lace up her Nikes for a long-distance run. In
the aftermath of her beloved firstborn’s suicide, she shares story at
bethsaadati.com to offer insight, understanding, and hope—with those who
weather the storms of suicidal thoughts and suicide loss…and with those who
simply know how bittersweet life can sometimes be. </span></span> </i><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgd5j-TcJLDFhZWWAkQd81qks4O6nKOP9vAypJ0RyOOIipOn7DGUXKDTk7KU8Wa2ncitGuzfsWK7tg33mkbv80ZHdPAp5lPU4h-9XZJUFO0i2jmam2jDAwhb_hj7E1JSU489un2FumoqGZ6/s1600/Beth+Pinterest+Headshost+.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"></a></div>
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Beth Saadatihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02714466010215082644noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688516975749389825.post-78393794605015358582019-09-12T22:11:00.000-04:002020-01-02T21:02:07.988-05:00Was It Worth It?<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It
certainly wasn’t what I was expecting to read when I opened the email from one
of my former English students:</span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Hey, I know this is
kind of out of the blue, but I just started songwriting. One of the songs I
wrote is about suicide. I hope to show people who experience suicidal thoughts
that there are people who love them, that suicide doesn’t get back at people
who’ve hurt them, that it hurts the people they’re closest to. If it's ok with
you, I would like to dedicate it to Jenna. I've included the lyrics for
you to read if you don't think it would be too painful. If it is, I completely
understand. I'm so sorry to throw this at you. </span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I
can’t think of anything more worth sharing for National Suicide Prevention
Month. The story within Olivia’s beautiful song is so powerful, so
heart-wrenching, so true. I urge you to take four minutes to listen to it. </span><span style="color: #1f4e79; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;">If only we could remember these
words when depression and lying suicidal thoughts arise, I believe far fewer lives would end
before their time.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Please stay,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><i>Beth </i> </span></div>
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young teenager—beautiful, full of life, and a joy to everyone around her. Unfortunately,
she was the victim of some bullying at her school, and somewhere along the way
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never had the opportunity to know her. Watching her pictures scroll across the
screen and hearing countless testimonies from all the people who loved her, I
could only cry and imagine the pain her family was going through. I was
much younger then and couldn’t understand why anyone who had touched the lives
of so many would ever take their own life.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Time
passed. During February of last year, I read Beth Saadati’s blog post <a href="http://www.bethsaadati.com/2017/06/3-or-13-reasons-why-not-from-one-whos.html">“3 (or 13) Reasons Why Not: From One Left to Survive a Non-Fictionalized Suicide”</a> in
response to the book and Netflix series <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Thirteen
Reasons Why</i>. This inspired me to write my first song. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #1f4e79; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;">I wanted to
acknowledge that deep sense of loneliness and helplessness that so many
teenagers experience, but also express that suicide is not the answer.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> Even in the midst of
struggles, you are still a light to the people around you. Although the
pain of open wounds, broken circumstances and despair seem all-consuming, there
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if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, don't hesitate to reach out.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"></span></div>
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running, listening to music, writing songs, and spending time with her friends
and family. She hopes to attend college in Nashville and pursue a career
as a singer-songwriter. Her dream is to write songs that touch people’s hearts
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Beth Saadatihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02714466010215082644noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688516975749389825.post-18128897977156253242019-08-18T12:52:00.000-04:002019-09-05T23:31:34.995-04:00A Letter to the Girl Who Should Have Turned 21<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">by Beth Saadati</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Dear Jenna,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">When <i>Dear Evan Hansen</i> came to Greenville, I wasn't ready to see it. (I am, however, currently working through the novel.) In the Broadway musical, Evan undertakes a common challenge given by counselors to help survive the pain in this life. He writes letters. Which reminded me of something I've been meaning to do. Although you won't be reading this, it’s long past time I write one to you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I wish I could have told you Happy 21<sup>st</sup>
Birthday this week. Twenty-one is a BIG DEAL. I wish I could have seen your
smile once again and taken you out to mark the occasion. Or, if you’d been
away, at least emailed . . . or texted . . . or talked by phone and heard your
voice—and, yes, I’m crying as I type this line. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I wish I knew whether I should think of
you, now, as my vivacious 14-year-old girl or as a beautiful young woman. For
all your years here, you loved that August 13<sup>th</sup> date.<sup> </sup>This
is the seventh birthday you’ve missed. Supposedly seven is the number of
perfection . . . but not in this case.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I wish you could have celebrated—with friends,
cousins, grandparents, your dad, me, and other extended family. I still see and
talk with some of your friends, Jenna—we text, catch up over a meal, or meet at
their universities—and that’s been good, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">so</i>
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">good</i>, except you should be there. At the core your close friends are the same, though they've grown and matured. With others, I’ve lost
touch. That might have happened anyway—after all, relationships sometimes change—but
I’d like to think, if you’d remained, those sweet connections wouldn’t have
drifted away.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I wish you could be here for your
sister and brother. You’ve missed several significant milestones, but even more,
all the little moments of greater worth. You would have shared wisdom to guide
them through the turbulent teen years. Told stories that let them laugh. And, no doubt, encouraged them on life's journey as their
number-one fan. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I wish you could watch Christa, who
plays your clarinet, and Josh march with the high-school band. I wish
you could return with the other alumni to cheer them on. This year's competition
show is powerful. The title? <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">To the Broken</i>… Which,
also, is a letter—composed by someone who
finds his voice through writing. The premise and theme certainly ring true. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I wish you were starting your senior
year of college. You’re the one who should be taking classes—not me. I wish I
could figure out how to rightly re-imagine and plot your bittersweet story, wish I were teaching full-time instead of wrestling to word it in graduate
school. I was the teacher and editor: you were the
writer. Crafting a novel is such a lonely journey, and nothing about this
inherited assignment feels quite right.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I wish I knew your fictional characters well
enough to finish your book and fulfill your final letter's request. Really, you’re probably the only one who can do that. Nevertheless, I
long to. My inability to give you this last parting gift tears a piece of
my heart apart.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I’m afraid this sounds selfish, but I
wish you were here while I go through cancer treatments—wrapping your arms
around me, resting your chin on the top of my head and whispering, “It’s gonna be okay,
Mom”. . . the way you used to whenever a sky-high stack of students’ essays lay
piled on my desk to grade. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I wish I knew what you’re seeing. And
thinking. And experiencing. I wonder what you know, wonder if people who’ve
left this life since your death have shared stories from home. I have a ton of
unanswered questions. I’ve gone to sleep hundreds of times begging God to please
give me a dream of you. There have been none. I struggle to believe what I
cannot see, to hold onto such distant hope. It’s not the way I ever
wanted this to be.</span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I wish this letter were happy and
positive, light-hearted and fun. I think it would have been if you had <i>truly</i> turned 21.</span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">There’s more I’d like to tell
you—enough to fill a book—but this will have to do.</span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Before I go, though, I’ll explain the
attached photo. My friend Sam, a teacher and writer who leads a ministry called <a href="http://www.recklesslyalive.com/">Recklessly Alive</a>, was visiting from Minnesota. If you’d heard him
speak before making your decision, I’m pretty sure you’d be around. I went with
Sam to a 1924 textile mill in order to photograph Mary, the
photographer, while she snapped some pictures for him. That’s when we saw
this—the month and day you were born stenciled onto the floor. The reminders are everywhere. I'll never forget. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">To conclude, I continue to journey—<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">life doesn’t exactly stop</i>—and mostly live
in the moment, because there are plenty of memories to make and much reason
to live.</span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">But I really, really wish you were here.
So many of us do.</span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I miss you. I love you. Someday I’ll
see you again.</span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">We’ll have a lifetime of catching up to
take care of then.</span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">All my love,</span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Beth</span></span></span></i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"> </span></span>(or maybe I’m still ‘Mom’ to you?)</span><br />
<br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">[Photo Credit: Mary Denman] </span></div>
Beth Saadatihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02714466010215082644noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688516975749389825.post-64276596772590632412019-05-30T13:13:00.000-04:002019-05-30T14:03:03.637-04:00Funeral Flowers: A TeenVoice Post<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I’ll
confess. Sometimes I inwardly cringe when I hear the question (especially when
it comes from complete strangers who email or hand me their work) that, as an
English teacher and writer, I’ve been asked thousands of times: “Would you like
to read what I’ve written?” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">“Of
course,” I normally answer, regardless of whether I <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">really</i> have extra time. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">The
standard reply I gave my 17-year-old nephew, however, was 100 percent sincere.
I’d never seen his writing. I was curious. Best of all, since he lived several
states away and wasn’t my student, I could set aside my red pen and simply
enjoy his work with no obligation to critique, grade, or give feedback.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Without
expectation, I nestled into a quilt and opened his St. Joseph High School
college-writing class binder. I began to read, awed and delighted by the content, craft
mastery, and word choices on the typed pages. An hour in, however, I
paused. Tears fell. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">This can’t be</i>, I
thought. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">It happened six years ago. I’m
reading too much into this.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">The
next day I asked; Jonathan confirmed my suspicions. He’d written the poem about
his oldest cousin, my oldest daughter. Jonathan's powerfully transparent words,
emailed during his drive home to Michigan, deserve to be heard:</span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5597; font-size: 12.0pt;">“Every time I visit South Carolina, in the midst of all the family
and good food and fun, I think of Jenna and how much better it would be with
her here. </span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5597; font-size: 12.0pt;">I have so many great memories of games, plays, and conversations
about books that I had with Jenna. She always spoke to me like I wasn't just a
silly elementary kid. Love and respect defined who she was. </span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5597; font-size: 12.0pt;">She was the best cousin and friend I could ever imagine. So,
it was really hard to write the poem “Funeral Flowers.” I wrote it by myself in
silence. Although I cried as I finished it, I was happy because it communicates
the ache I feel. </span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5597; font-size: 12.0pt;">I think we all share a longing for the way things used to be—a
longing that will someday make our joy incomprehensible when Jesus makes all
things right. But for now, I hope other people know that, in their pain,
they’re not alone.”</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Please stay. Hope remains.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">~Beth
Saadati</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 18.0pt;">Funeral Flowers</span></b></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">by Jonathan Miesse</i></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">I ponder your</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">first-day-of-high-school
picture.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Hair flows off your shoulders</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">to rest on a light blue
backpack.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Yellow and pink roses </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">fill the background,</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">the morning sun illuminating</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">their glorious life.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">But I stare into your easy
gaze</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">wondering how we never saw
through it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Did you know</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">even then?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">I suppose</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">your hesitant smile</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">might hide secrets.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Your arms wrap around</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">your mother.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Her ashen jacket contrasts</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">with the sunny scene</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">like the mourner she will
become.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">Your mother’s</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">eyes are still young,</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">her face not yet worn</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">by tears that still arrive</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">every</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">single</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">day</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">since the day you chose</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">suicide.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">If only you hadn’t</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">let go.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">If only you’d held</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">your mother forever.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">The roses crowd nearer.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">They look like they’re
holding</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">their breath.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span class="il"><i>Jonathan</i></span><i> Miesse is a typical teen who enjoys
soccer, piano, and sleeping in really long on the weekends. He values the power
of writing as a lifelong tool for expressing universal pains and joys. He loves
his church, his family, and Lake Michigan. His motto is ‘function over appearance.’</i></span></div>
Beth Saadatihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02714466010215082644noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688516975749389825.post-65800329411578694652019-04-11T14:24:00.002-04:002019-09-03T17:09:08.269-04:00Can We Kill the Stigma? <!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 10.0pt;"> <span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">by Beth Saadati</span></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It’s only two steps. </span></i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I remind myself this
is probably nothing—the odds are ever in my favor!—still, I tremble inside as I
climb.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I
lie down on the hard table, a pillow beneath my head, a pillow beneath my feet,
and turn my head to the side, away from the bustle and noise. A painted
scene—beauty to decorate the sterile?—hangs on the wall. Inches away from my
face, a CD boom box rests on a ledge. From it, falsely soothing music begins to
play.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">“We
want to make this as comfortable as possible,” says a nurse I can’t see. “Almost
like a spa. Don’t hesitate to ask if there’s anything you need.” She’s kind,
quite kind, and sincere, but…a <i>spa</i>? Despite the heated blanket draped over me
and the wedge pillow cocooned in one arm, it’s not. It’s terrifyingly not. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">With
no wasted time, the process starts—the prep to be done before the doctor comes.
I close my eyes. I try to relax. I make a respectable effort to push all that’s
vulnerable, awkward, and exposed out of my mind. It works, somewhat, until Dr.
Chaney arrives.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">“On
the count of three, you’ll feel the needle.” I’m genuinely afraid of the
six-letter word <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">(so afraid I chose three
natural childbirths over subjecting my spine to that wicked epidural)</i> but I
remain quiet. I try hard to be brave.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">His
voice, gentle and soothing, cuts through droning melodies as he talks me
through each procedure, as he extricates tissue that must be removed. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">“In
three more counts, you’ll hear a pop.” I do—and pray that the sprayed lidocaine
that’s numbed one side of my body continues to work. My forearm grips the wedge.
My thumb fingers my grandma’s wedding ring that adorns my right hand as I
remember my role model, the woman I looked up to.<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> </i>For the first time I realize, when I was in college, how little I <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">really</i> knew about courage, about life,
about the cancer surgeries she endured. And I wonder, if need be, whether I’ll
be strong enough to walk in her shoes. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">“Next
you’ll hear something that sounds like a sewing machine. You shouldn’t feel
anything, though.” I lie still, feigning deep sleep, and think of a friend who,
years earlier, withstood far more than this—as well as others who’ve received
unwanted diagnoses and undesired treatments, yet chose to suffer whatever they
had to in order to live. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I’m
x-rayed and magnetized, radiated and injected. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">(For the record, I fully expect to emerge from Room 2 a female version
of Captain America.)</i> With every picture taken, however, a nurse commands
something simple: “Stop your breath.” I obey, but it hurts to remember that,
once upon a time, my daughter permanently did. Again and again I hear the
words, and I am silently wrecked. My mind stills on a single-thought focus: </span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">God, please be here. I don’t want to be alone in this.</span></i><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Then
it’s over. The doctor leaves; he’s extracted what he needs. The nurses apply
pressure, bandage the spliced skin, pack the wound in ice. Opening my eyes, I
view the entirety of the pretty, framed scene as the table lowers. I descend
the pair of black steps and mentally prepare for the torturous two-day wait.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Thursday
finally arrives—the day anxiety can at last be put to rest. After all, I’m
still (relatively) young, healthy, void of foreboding warning signs. And, the
facts are for me: eighty percent of biopsies are benign. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">A
nurse ushers my husband and me to a special room, where a radiologist I don’t
know enters. As I stand to shake hands, he greets me with soft eyes and forces
a slight smile. He introduces his resident doctor, apologizes that it’s under
these circumstances we first meet, and instructs me to sit.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">There’s
no need to say more. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">The
scenario is too familiar; past words forever engraved on my mind reemerge: “You
need to sit down,” a friend with troubled eyes had said on a cold January night.
“Your daughter is dead. It appears she took her own life.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Staring
</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">The Unexpected</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> in the face once
again, I receive the news. Eighty percent of biopsies may be benign, but I have
a new storm to weather, an invisible enemy to fight. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Because
those odds aren’t mine.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">* * *</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Although
I prefer to process privately, I tell a few friends, plus some people who will
need to <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"></span>know. One newly-befriended couple
sends a long, thoughtful email that touches my heart at its core:</span></div>
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“We are so sorry to hear about your
diagnosis. There is no scarier word in the English language. We will be praying
fervently for you and your family…”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">The
second sentence stops me short. Although doctors caught my cancer early, the past
three weeks I’ve battled (and succumbed to) an insane amount of fear.
Nevertheless, </span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">as scary as the C
word is, there’s one I find even scarier—the other unforeseen storm I’ve
weathered.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">
It starts with an S.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">And
I wonder…what if the word “suicide” doesn’t <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">have
</i>to induce fear? </span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">What if the
following five answers from cancer can help us kill the stigma surrounding
suicidal thoughts and depression and bring forth life?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 20.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">1. Cancer Isn’t Anyone’s Fault. </span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">The
statement on the American Cancer Society website caught my eye: “Cancer is not
your fault, and there’s almost never a way to find out what caused it. Instead,
focus on taking good care of yourself now.” Nevertheless, I’ve obsessed over every
non-genetic thing I could have done wrong to “bring this on.” Should I have
exercised more consistently? Drunk asparagus juice? Used Essential Oils? Consumed
only all-organic food? Prayed and believed with greater faith? I don’t know why
my cells are misbehaving, but, whatever the reason, </span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">cancer is ultimately an <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">illness</i></span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I
don’t want and never asked for. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Left
untended, however, the cancer will most likely grow. I can’t “just get over
it,” “just be happy,” or “just think positive thoughts and move on.” </span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Depression and suicidal
thoughts should be respected the same. Loved ones who struggle with either
illness aren’t to blame.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 20.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">2. Cancer Can Be Diagnosed and Treated</span></b><span style="font-size: 20.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Yes,
it comes with a physical and financial cost. Yes, there are side-effects. Yes,
it’s inconvenient. Yes, there’s a margin of guesswork involved. But x-rays,
MRIs, ultrasounds, surgery, and pathology reports can paint a fairly accurate
picture of what’s going on regarding type, stage, grade, and a host of additional
terms I won’t bother to name. </span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Once the medical team assesses what they’re working with, they can
take proactive steps to try to treat it. </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Together, we can do something about this.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">When
it comes to depression and suicidal thoughts, however, people often hesitate to
seek medical help. According to the National Institute of Mental Health, “NIMH-sponsored
studies estimate that 6 percent of 9- to 17-year-olds in the U.S. and almost 10
percent of American adults, or about 19 million people age 18 and older,
experience some form of depression every year.<sup> </sup><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Although available therapies alleviate symptoms in over 80 percent of
those treated, less than half of people with depression get the help they need.</b>”
</span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">It’s time to end the
unfair mental health stigma and encourage diagnosis and treatment.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 20.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">3. Cancer Isn’t a Silent Topic Shrouded in Shame.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Although
I doubt I’ll be littering social media with my medical reports, cancer evokes
no pointed fingers of shame. Compassion? Yep. Concern? You bet. I’m free to
share the struggle with the world if I feel so inclined. </span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">The big C word isn’t
something my inner voice nudges me to hide.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Society,
on the other hand, discourages open disclosure of depression or suicidal
thoughts. Perhaps that’s part of the reason 99 percent of all suicides are
“hidden”—because pain is preferable to shame. Everything about that is wrong. </span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">We’ve got to start the
conversation, break the silence that surrounds depression, and cheer on those
who courageously speak up.</span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 20.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">4. Cancer Doesn’t Define Anyone.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Some
of my cells are over-enthusiastically dividing, but they don’t make up the sum
of who I am <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">(pun most certainly intended)</i>.
</span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">There’s so much more
to me</span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">than my body’s
confusion that’s about to be kicked in the dupa. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">(Note: “Dupa” is a term I learned from my spunky four foot, eleven inch
grandma in Cleveland, Ohio…you didn’t really think I’d use the three-letter
word now, did you?) </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">The
same is true for those whose brains contain decreased levels of serotonin,
dopamine, and norepinephrine neurotransmitters that contribute to depression. </span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">We ought to be mature
enough to see who, at the heart, people are—not just what they must fight to
overcome.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 20.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;">5. Cancer Has Two Companions: Help and Hope.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">As
soon as my pathology report confirmed the presence of cancer, Bon Secours
Hospital System assigned a navigator to the case, put a precise plan into
action, and offered “free” down-the-road assistance that includes nutritional
counseling, genetic testing, and support group participation. Granted, there’s
no guarantee the eradicated cancer won’t someday return, but </span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I plan to latch onto
all the hope and help there is to decrease the possibility cancer will come back
and rear its ugly head</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Unbeknownst to the
multitudes, depression and suicidal thinking walk hand-in-hand with the same
two friends.</span><span style="color: #2f5597; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">There’s <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">so much help</b> available. <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">And even more hope</b> to defeat the lies
that can antagonize our minds. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">It’s time to take the
steps, despite the fear of journeying into the unknown. Let’s learn from
cancer, kill suicide’s stigma and, together, fight to stay alive. </span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-latin;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><i>Beth is a high school English teacher, wife,
and mom to two spectacular teens. She likes to spend time with family and
friends, indulge in a Chicago-style mushroom pizza or homemade blackberry pie,
and, with shameful inconsistency, lace up her Nikes for a long-distance run. In
the aftermath of her beloved firstborn’s suicide, she shares story at
bethsaadati.com to offer insight, understanding, and hope—with those who
weather the storms of suicidal thoughts and suicide loss…and with those who
simply know how bittersweet life can sometimes be. </i></span></span></span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: 10pt;">by Beth Saadati</span></span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">While perusing at Barnes & Noble, I
noticed the girl on the swing. I picked up the prominently displayed novel,
scanned the back cover, read the included author’s interview. Suddenly a single
thought overshadowed everything else: <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">I
never want to read this book</i>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Not because it wasn’t relevant. Not
because I wanted to bury my head in the sand and pretend you and I live in
happily-ever-after land.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Rather, because <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Thirteen Reasons Why</i> was, to its author, fiction. Truth be told, I
wanted to fling the novel across the room, because </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">I hated
knowing this FICTION was my—and way too many others’—nightmare</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">…my nonfiction reality.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Nevertheless, curiosity got the best of
me—it was an international bestseller, plus I wanted to see what the YA literature
had to say—and, well, I always want to muster up enough courage
to face the hard in life. (That run towards the roar thing.)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">So, a few days later I pulled the book
off the library shelf, snuggled into a cushioned chair and, without moving save
an occasional blink, read the story from beginning to end.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">That was thirteen (pardon the irony)
months ago. I’ve been processing it ever since.</span><span style="font-family: "symbol"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "symbol"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Is <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Thirteen
Reasons Why</i> a page-turner? Obviously. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Do I agree with the theme—we can go to
school with classmates for years and never really know them—that Jay Asher shared
when I briefly met him and heard him speak? Sadly, yes.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Am I glad the novel encourages a
conversation about tough topics that have, for far too long, been silenced and stigmatized?
Definitely.</span><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">But…Was I emotionally wrecked and,
admittedly, physically <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">sick</i> after completing
the book? You can’t imagine the extent.</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Why? Despite some positive aspects of
Asher’s work, </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">the message it,
perhaps unintentionally, communicates about suicide—whether through the Netflix
hit series or the novel—is severely wrong in three major ways.</span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 20.0pt;">1. There’s nothing
romantic about suicide</span></b><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 20.0pt;">. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Nothing. Not.One.Thing. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Granted, in dark moments, it’s easy to
romanticize thoughts of suicide. The self-talk goes something like this:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">THEN people—heck, friends I didn’t even
know I had—will come to my funeral </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">…and appreciate me</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">…and say good things</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">…and truly care</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">…and see that I mattered</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">…and, maybe, finally understand who I
am.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Right?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">While the picture’s partly accurate—people
will do these things—the truth is others (it doesn’t matter whether it’s one or
two, many or a few) appreciate who you are, like you, and see that you matter
now. While you’re alive. While you’re HERE. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It’s just that, </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">sometimes, even friends and family fail to take time to
communicate how much they care</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> And,
perhaps more often, we’re not always able to recognize or receive it, even when
they do.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">But back to the romantic notion of
suicide—you know, the memorials left outside a school locker and all that jazz.
In contrast, here’s what it’s <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">really</i>
looked like after my daughter ended her life:</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 10.0pt;">It was the largest visitation the
funeral home had ever had, plus a packed-out church with friends from every walk
of life. But it wasn’t romantic. Or glorious. In the same place where a
beautiful girl used to smile, dance, and captivate with her stories, a coffin
sat amidst a billion unanswered this-side-of-heaven questions and intense sadness that stifled with its weight.<span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font-feature-settings: normal; font-kerning: auto; font-language-override: normal; font-size-adjust: none; font-size: 7pt; font-stretch: normal; font-style: normal; font-synthesis: weight style; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal;"> </span></span> </span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 10.0pt;">It’s stopping by the gravesite in the
sweltering South Carolina sun to find a daughter’s name marker covered with fire ant
hills<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">.</span></span></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It’s the tender embrace, the “I love
you,” the parting goodbye <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">no one</i> was
given opportunity to say. </span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">There’s nothing romantic about suicide.
Just ask anyone who’s lived it firsthand.</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 20.0pt;">2. Suicide isn’t a
means of revenge.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">In <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Thirteen
Reasons Why</i>, Hannah Baker convinces us it is. She precisely plots her
revenge with the recording of every cassette tape. In the end, it appears that she "wins." Which makes for an engaging story but, again, isn’t the way it really
is.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">This is about to get messy, but let me
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">In the suicide letter my 14-year-old
left behind, Jenna privately addressed three paragraphs to specific peers who
had hurt her.</span><span style="font-family: "symbol"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "symbol"; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Did these particular classmates come to
the visitation or funeral? For the most part, no.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Have they expressed regret about their
exclusion and hurtful words? Except for one, none have.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">From all appearances (Facebook,
Instagram, and <a href="http://www.bethsaadati.com/2016/06/it-shouldnt-have-ended-this-way_2.html">graduation</a>), has life continued
as normal for them? Social media can lie, but it certainly seems so.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Given the fact that many middle- and
high-schoolers live in a “me bubble,” sometimes insensitive and oblivious to
others, are those classmates even <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">aware</i>
of the hurt they caused? I have reason to doubt they are.</span></li>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Thirteen Reasons Why</span></i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">
portrays suicide as an effective means of revenge. Believe me when I say it
doesn’t work that way.</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">Instead, suicide
devastates friends and family who did wholeheartedly care.</span></b><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">They’re the ones who replay the “what if” memories, who
struggle with survivor’s guilt, whose hearts break apart, who miss like crazy
the one no longer here. Ultimately, suicide wounds the people you <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">wouldn’t</i> want to hurt. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">In a culture infested with the
demoralizing actions shown in the book—bullying, gossiping, rape, and much
more—what’s the best “revenge” anyone can plan?</span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"> Do
whatever it takes to survive wrong that’s been done by fighting to overcome,
forgive, and truly live</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">.</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 20.0pt;">3. Even when
everything seems to say otherwise, help is available. And hope is here.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Hannah Baker appears to be out of
options. “Friends” betray her. A teacher and guidance counselor let her down. Her
parents aren’t too involved. None of that should have happened. Unfortunately,
in this world it does.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">What the story doesn’t show, however,
is that help was still available. As was hope.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">For Hannah Baker. And for my sweet girl.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">The struggle <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">is</i> real. When hopelessness sets in, it can be so hard to see</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">…that anyone cares</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">…that anyone understands</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">…that anyone can help</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">…that anything can change.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">But </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">things
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">can</i> change. Others <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">can</i> help.</span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Granted, the process probably won’t be quick
or easy. It’s like a high school senior, who emailed me after watching my
daughter’s <span style="color: red;"><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y0Ln759NWLc">video</a></span>, said:</span> “<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Oftentimes I'll find myself wondering if people would care,
since, at certain times when I tried to open up and explain it [depression], no
one seemed to. Reaching out is often very scary.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">I can relate to his spot-on words. But don’t
give up. You can find <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">someone</i>—a
friend, a parent, a friend’s mom or dad, a teacher, a youth group leader, a
coach, a professional counselor—who cares and wants to help, even if those
you’d expected to stand by you, for whatever reason, can’t or don’t.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">In addition to help, there really is
true hope to continue on. Contrary to what we’re tempted to think, lasting
hope’s not found so much in the big social media status-update stuff—the
degree, the job promotion, the new car or house, or even the finally-found best
friend, boyfriend/girlfriend, or spouse.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Rather, </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">it’s
life’s little moments that give reason to live</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">.</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It’s when <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">your</i> smile brightens another’s day—or someone’s brightens yours.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It’s when help <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">you</i> give carries someone through a difficult time—or someone helps
carry you. (Think Sam and Frodo in <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Lord
of the Rings</i>.)</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It’s when <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">you</i>’<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">re</i> there to listen
when a friend needs to talk—or someone listens to you.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">It’s when a friend unexpectedly says,
“I’m glad you’re here”—or you get to remind someone of that too-often-unspoken
truth.</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Plus, there’s other real hope to hold
onto:</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Though the road is often rocky for
several years, perspective often changes when teen hormones stop raging and the frontal lobe of the brain
is done growing (when the rational finally catches up to the emotional at age
25). </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">Most importantly, God fights for you, can heal you,
and is ridiculously will-die-for in love with you. Despite how it sometimes
looks, He hasn’t forsaken you. He’s not going to.</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;">So, to all the real-life Hannah Bakers,
who have thirteen reasons—or more—to say farewell, </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;">please</span></i></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #2f5496; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 191;"> make a different
choice, even when you’re pummeled by the storms of life</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> Because you <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">can </i>make
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">If you, or someone
you know, have watched or read </span></i><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Thirteen Reasons Why<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">, or if you wrestle with suicidal thoughts, please take a moment to
read <a href="http://www.focusonthefamily.com/parenting/teens/13-reasons-why-not">"13 Reasons Why Not."</a> I was in the process
of writing essentially the same post—with the same working title—when an editor
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wheel, I decided to switch angles. The article, written by Daniel Huerta, a licensed counselor and vice president
for parenting and youth at Focus, is
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how to talk about bullying, cutting, sexting, rape, and suicide with their teens.
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<![endif]--><i><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">by Beth Saadati</span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The
quick glance out the window was innocent. Unintended. A lazy Saturday morning
thing. But it was enough to view what I by no means wanted to see.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">In
the middle of my backyard stood an uncommonly large, Edgar Allan Poe raven-like crow.
Beside it lay a coiled mound.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I
squinted to focus my nearsighted eyes then called for my husband, Komron,
and asked him to step outside.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">As
we stood on the patio concrete, I pointed to the pile. “What <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">is</i> that?”</span>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Part
of me hoped he’d lie and let me live deceived. Instead, he minced no words.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“It’s
a snake,” he said. “I’ll be back.”</span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">A snake…take a deep breath…it’s just a
snake.</span></i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> (For the record, “just” NEVER belongs in the same sentence
as “snake” as far as I’m concerned.) </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Needless
to say, the internal monologue failed to persuade my scaredy-cat self. My
heartbeat escalated to 200 beats-per-minute as I waited . . . paralyzed.</span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">[A responsible blogger would insert a
picture of the snake here. But was photographing that nemesis anywhere on my
radar at the time? Heck no.]</span></i></div>
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<a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">My
insane fear mingled with something else—a blend of anger, of disappointment, of
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">it isn’t fair</i>—because</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">, on that gorgeous May day, I’d <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">really</i> wanted to finish a task outdoors.
Now the snake’s presence would hold me hostage inside.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">You see, last
weekend I’d finally tended to the garden I’d neglected, the project I used to
enjoy. For essentially the first time since my daughter’s death in 2013, I’d
located the raised beds, pulled out the weeds, turned over the dirt, submerged
the seeds.</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 14.0pt;">But, more than planting seeds, I’d sown hope. </span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Hope
for a harvest, for restoration of joy. It reminded me of a line from "The Rain Keeps Falling," one of my favorite <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fn8cbI9jFGc">Andrew Peterson songs</a>: “My
daughter and I put the seeds in the dirt, and every day now we’ve been watching
the earth for a sign that this death will give way to a birth.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Not only had I sown hope, I’d
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 18.0pt;">Run Toward The Roar. </span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Powerful
sayings speak to me, as evidenced by my puny <a href="https://www.pinterest.com/bethsaadati/">Pinterest page</a>, and this one tops
my list. It comes from a post <a href="http://daveyblackburn.com/posts/run-toward-the-roar?rq=run%20toward%20the%20roar">Davey Blackburn</a> had written after
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the ferocious sound of a male lion’s roar, animals flee to seek safety only to
be ambushed by lionesses (yep, that’s plural) that lie on the outskirts waiting
to kill. In contrast, if animals run TOWARD the roar despite their fright, they’ll
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turn and bolt <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">from</i> trials, hurt, and
pain, when we run <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">toward</i> the terrifying roar
of what we’d rather not confront—and let God meet us there—we're able to journey more fully alive.</span></b></div>
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</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Returned
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</span></span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Celebrated
others’ graduations</span><span style="font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"> </span></span></li>
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roar of some seemingly small things, such as restoring the garden, had kept me
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memories crashed over me in waves. Of the garden planning Jenna and I had
originally done when she was young. The South Carolina clay we’d sifted. The seeds we’d sown.
The harvest we’d gathered. The place she’d played when she needed a break. The
trellis she’d stood under for photos before attending her first, and last,
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say—“It’s gonna be okay, Mom”—when she'd rest her chin on the top of my head and
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good snake?</span></i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> The only thing my English-teacher
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made the snake move. Komron hedged the garden with them, which drove my slithering foe toward the rear chain-link fence. Meanwhile, Max, our trusty
little mutt who twice chased down live squirrels and brought them to their
doom, was too preoccupied with a chipmunk to give it a wink.</span></div>
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into our neighbor’s yard.” Truth be told, I didn’t either, even though,
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was as certain of that as I was of winning the lottery with a ticket I hadn't bought. Then I remembered another garden from ancient times—where a heel was bruised
and a head was crushed—and I realized our enemy had deceived and frightened my girl into
running the wrong way. But the One who knows and loves us fights <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">for</i> us and longs for us to stay.</span></div>
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downward spiral started with a <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iz7XWawx4lE">TV interview</a>. At least that’s what I think. Not
with speaking—an insane amount of grace covered that—but with reclining in the
comfort of my home, seeing myself on screen, and hearing the story of a
daughter’s death. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Everything
about it seemed impossible. Surreal.</span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">How can that be me?</span></i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">
screamed a voice inside my hea<span style="font-size: small;">d. <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><i>That's not the story I EVER wanted to be given to share.</i></span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><i><br /></i></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Or
maybe it goes back to June. To all the graduation ceremonies—to celebrate my
students, who were also my daughter’s friends—and seeing, at the final one, the
chair marked with an unworn cap and gown where Jenna should have been.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Then
again, perhaps it’s about a prayer I’d prayed a couple months before. That I would
UNDERSTAND what in the world had gone wrong four years ago. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">I<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"> </span>know. That request is right up there
with praying for patience. No Ph.D. degree required to know what happens when
we ask to grow in THAT.</i></span>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Regardless of what
it was, depression set in.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> Big time. (Regretfully, I’d stopped
doing several of the things that had previously helped me keep it at bay.)<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> </i>For the first time since Jenna’s
death—where a wave of grief crests then recedes approximately once a week—it
clung to me and refused to leave.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Call
me blind, but at the time I <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">had little idea</span> why. Looking back—because hindsight is (sometimes?)
20/20—I can better see the triggers that encouraged depression to obnoxiously
worm its way in:</span></div>
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<ul>
<li><span style="font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"></span></span></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The
gloom of winter.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> Shortened days. Lack of sun. Less vitamin
D. Trees without leaves. And women wearing scarves—the implement that ended my
teenager’s life. Need I say more?</span></li>
</ul>
<ul>
<li><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">A
guest speaker.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> His story was powerful. I hung on
every word. But after the church service he told my husband it took eight years
before the sting from his young-adult son’s suicide left. A counselor had told
me it’s typically four or five. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Eight</i>
years means I might only be halfway there. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">(And oh...oh</span>, Bon Jovi, I’m livin’ on a prayer.)</i> </span></li>
</ul>
<ul>
<li><span style="font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"></span></span></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Driving
home with a former student/longtime family friend. </span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Hearing
his stories, stopping for ice cream, laughing, catching up. The drive back from
Clemson University was, hands down, the highlight of my week. But I awoke at 2
a.m.—painfully aware that MY should-be freshman wouldn’t be coming back for Christmas
break, that her collegiate tales wouldn’t be filling my home, that once again <s>I’d</s>
we’d be missing out—and couldn’t return to sleep. </span></li>
</ul>
<ul>
<li><span style="font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"></span></span></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Christmas
trees.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> I used to love them. Someday I will. But in my final memory
of Jenna, she’s standing beside our tree and saying she’d be back soon before
walking out the front door never to return.</span></li>
</ul>
<ul>
<li><span style="font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"></span></span></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">A
stack of Christmas cards.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> Talk about bittersweet. While I’m
honored that friends would remember to send family photos when I no longer do--<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">please keep sending them!--</i>and I delight
in seeing their beautiful families grow up, it’s one more reminder that my
family will never (on this side of heaven) be complete. </span></li>
</ul>
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<li><span style="font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"></span></span></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The
holiday season.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> Vivid memories of my final weeks with
my first-birthed girl come rushing back each year—of singing carols and opening
presents and life being happy and right…until, without warning, everything
changed on that one horrific night. And I replay them all. </span></li>
</ul>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">That’s all it took
for things to get, well, dark.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">For
my words—both written and spoken—to dry up. For bitterness to root. For
hopelessness to overwhelm me. For that nagging question—how can God redeem <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">this</i>?—to mock the faith that’s carried
me through.</span>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The
crazy thing is, I don’t think anyone other than my husband could tell much was
wrong. On the outside, the depression wasn’t too hard to hide. I still smiled, meandered
through the motions, and (mostly) stayed involved.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">But
on the inside, depression’s lying accusations wouldn’t let go:</span></div>
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<ul>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“You’ve
failed as a mom.”</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“What
do you have to offer other teens? You couldn’t even save your own.”</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“Everyone’s
tired of hearing about this. There’s nothing more to say, no story to tell.”</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“You’re
not strong enough.”</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“You’re
broken.”</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“You’re
replaceable.”</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“Nothing
you do matters. In the end, none of it amounts to much.”</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">And
the biggest lie of all, the one I <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">really</i>
don’t want to admit:</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></div>
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<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“Maybe
it’s time to go. Maybe it would be better to no longer exist.”</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: 14pt;">Even though I felt
helpless to change it, deep inside I knew my thinking was pretty tangled up. </span></b></span>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">First,
because despite how true the thoughts sounded, they didn’t match who God says I am. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Second—this
probably sounds small, but it was a ridiculously large red flag to me—because
I’d avoided Christmas carols for five weeks. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">“It’s the most wonderful time of the year. It’s the hap-happiest time
of the year.” Ugh! </i>Nevertheless, zero Christmas songs is abnormally weird.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Instead,
I survived the season by replaying Guns N’ Roses’ “November Rain” possibly two
hundred times. Yep. Because, in addition to the screamer, “Don’t
you know that you need somebody!” at the end, there’s that one spectacular,
hope-filled line: “Nothing lasts forever—even cold November rain.” <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">My
husband suggested I talk with a counselor. I<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">t was wise advice</span>, but my stubborn
self-sufficiency—“I know everything he’ll say, so I’ll handle this myself”—kept
me away.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“If
you won’t go,” he said, “at least tell some friends.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Tell
some friends. Hmmm. That was a more difficult decision, because my people are
some of my favorites on the planet—friends who accept me, love me, and want to
step into my mess. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">The
problem?</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></div>
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<ul>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Who talks about depression? I wasn’t
sure ANYONE would understand.</span><span style="font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I didn’t have words for what I was feeling
inside.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Depression is an awkward, uncomfortable
topic to bring up. Not to mention that I HATE to ask for help.</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Everyone has struggles and hardships.
Pity isn’t something I want.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I didn’t want to burden others or take
up their time.</span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> </span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Although I’ve had to battle depression
since my daughter’s death, it doesn’t define me. At my core, it’s not who I am.
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">So,
yeah, I didn’t reach out, didn’t send any texts, didn’t make any calls. </span>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;">Thankfully, God
pursues us with a relentless love that doesn’t give up.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">He
gets my foolish ways, so He sent friends to me who asked THE question—“How are
you?”—that I couldn’t evade. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I
put a damper (<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">major understatement</i>) on
a birthday lunch date with one friend, wrecked lovely dinners with two others,
and ruined some could-have-been-wonderful conversations with a couple more. But
I don’t think any of them minded. In fact, I’m guessing they were glad they could
be there—to listen, to let me talk, to gently speak truth to me that <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">finally</i> lessened the lies.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">And
from it came the understanding I’d asked for about what had happened to my
sweet, vivacious girl.</span></div>
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<li><span style="font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">About how some incidents could create a
perfect storm, trigger a downward spiral, and cause Jenna to replay her life through
a clouded lens.</span></li>
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<ul>
<li><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">About why she <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">said</span> in her <a href="http://www.bethsaadati.com/2016/04/suicides-7-lies-letter-my-daughter-left.html">suicide note</a> that she’d felt depressed for a few months (after being blindsided by a
peer’s crushing words) despite the lack of outward signs.<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><br /></span></span></li>
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<ul>
<li><span style="font-family: "symbol"; mso-bidi-font-family: Symbol; mso-fareast-font-family: Symbol;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;"><span style="font: 7.0pt "Times New Roman";"></span></span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">About how true the lies can sound once
they’ve grown in the dark.</span></li>
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. . and how easy it can be to hide.</span></li>
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give anything to rewind the clock. How I wish I would have better understood
and recognized the false accusations coursing through Jenna’s mind. How I wish I
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. . . but it LIES</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 16.0pt;">.</span></div>
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is hard, but there is real hope. Bright moments will come that you won’t want
to miss. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">(As if right on cue, when I
typed that a Panera manager walked to where I was seated and asked if I wanted
a free pastry. Heck ye<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">s</span>!)</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Instead,
let’s talk. And listen. And, together, fight <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">to live fully alive</span>. </span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 14.0pt;">Because, despite
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://www.recklesslyalive.com/25-ways-to-fight-depression/">[Check out this powerful post, "25 Ways to Fight Back Against Depression," by Sam Eaton at Recklessly Alive.]</a> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><a href="http://www.recklesslyalive.com/5-things-christians-get-wrong-about-depression/">[And, while you're there, take a moment to read Sam's other thought-provoking link, "5 Things Christians Get Wrong About Depression." It's definitely worth your time.]</a></span></span></div>
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Beth Saadatihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02714466010215082644noreply@blogger.com24tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688516975749389825.post-89192306664778514952017-01-02T23:05:00.000-05:002017-01-02T23:05:52.542-05:00Please Stay<i>by Beth Saadati</i><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">I never want to forget Jenna's smile that lit up my world for fourteen years. If you can spare a few minutes to watch and remember with me, I'm almost certain you'll be glad you did.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;">Choose to live. Hope remains. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><i><span style="font-family: Times,"Times New Roman",serif;">Beth</span></i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;">“To the peers at
school who bullied and hated on me (you know very well who you are): FYI, words
</span></span><span style="font-size: 12pt;">are<span style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> painful, in case that never occurred to
you. People’s feelings are not something to be played with. Overall, it’s not
your fault that I’m gone now, but all of you played a huge role in it. <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> </b></span></span><span style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">For this month’s blog post, let me introduce BITTERSWEET’S
first guest writer, Christa Saadati, my middle daughter. She shared a room with
Jenna and, despite a four-year age difference, was one of her sister’s closest
confidants and friends. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">In October, Christa turned fourteen. She’s almost to-the-day
the age Jenna was when a peer delivered cruel words at school that altered her
perception of who she was. As a result of those spoken lies, a few months later
Jenna chose to end her life. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Christa was recently assigned an essay to write for
composition class. She chose a topic not on the list. Bullying. I’ll confess .
. . when I found out, I cried. Because I know the reason why. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">But I’m proud of Christa for facing her loss instead of
running away. Although she struggles to forgive the wrong that’s been done, she
speaks with objective wisdom—wisdom birthed from a place of pain mixed with fond
memories of the older sister and BFF she loved and adored.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Without further ado, here are Christa’s words. They’re worth
being heeded and heard. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">A middle-school girl steps off the school bus and dashes for
her front door. Once inside, she breaks down and sobs. Through tears, she tells
her mom how some peers at school called her stupid and ugly—and some other
names she doesn’t want to repeat. Then she blurts out, “Why do they hate me so
much?” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Unfortunately, stories of slander, hostility, and
exclusion—all forms of bullying—are common. According to Dr. Susan P. Limber, a
Clemson University professor and national director of a bully prevention
program, nearly one in five students admits to being bullied with some
frequency, with 39 percent of girls and 46 percent of boys reporting that the abuse
lasted for a year or more.</span></div>
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myth. So why do some kids choose to do this? </span></div>
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bullies have experienced some kind of pain or neglect. Many have been bullied
themselves. Thinking that hurting a peer will make them feel better, they take
their anger out on other students to gain a false sense of control over their own
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power. Occasionally bullies even follow a parent’s example, copying what they
see done in their homes. Contrary to popular belief, however, these reasons
only represent a minority of the oppressors.</span></div>
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desire to be considered “cool.” According to Jaana Juvonen, a professor of
developmental psychology at UCLA who has spent a decade researching bullying, recent
surveys taken at middle and high schools show intimidators are most often
popular kids who exhibit insanely high levels of self-esteem.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Adolescents understand this. Too often, ruthlessness is
required to climb the social ladder of popularity. Kids will scheme, gossip,
and connive their way to get to the top. Once a kid achieves a “cool” status,
he or she will do almost anything to defend it. </span></div>
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kids hesitate to speak up for them and risk their own reputations. Thus, both
bullies and their victims become locked in a vicious cycle.</span></div>
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with bullying. Indeed, as Dr. Limber states, “Just the threat of bullying can
turn a school’s atmosphere toxic.” Even after it stops, victims struggle with
self-worth, anxiety, and depression. </span></div>
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many victims are afraid to speak up. Sometimes, even if they do tell an
authority at the school, an administrator may not be able to do much. If not
treated properly, bullying can lead to problems that include cutting and eating
disorders. In a growing number of cases, it can even lead to suicide. </span></div>
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taken seriously. There’s too much to be lost if it’s not.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">So what can be done? Bullying is a tough issue to address. The
home, however, is the first place to prevent it, with parents taking time to
teach their kids how to rightly relate to classmates—especially to those peers
who don’t neatly “fit in a box.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Ultimately, though, change has to start with students
themselves. The situation won’t get better unless kids and teens decide to
sacrifice their own popularity in order for bullying to stop.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">On a positive note, Juvonen’s studies also show that,
despite the devastating effects bullying leaves, one friend can make a huge difference
in another’s life. So let’s get our focus off ourselves and, instead, think
about someone else.</span>
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<i><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;">by Beth Saadati</span></span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Suicide. I hate the
word—hate hearing it spoken flippantly in conversation and mentioned casually
in songs. Because, when you’ve lived through it, you know what it <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">is</i>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Suicide is the
real-life horror of That Night. Of facing the unexpected without time to
prepare. Of the words no parent should have to hear: “Your daughter is dead. She
took her own life.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">It’s waking up the
next morning (if any rest came) and realizing the nightmare is here to stay. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">It’s a dad who does
all he can to protect his firstborn from harm. Then has to tell his children
their adored older sibling won’t be coming back home.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">It’s a ten-year-old
girl who adopts her sister’s stuffed bunny and, for years to follow, clutches
it tightly each night. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">It’s a young boy who
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<a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Suicide is emptiness,
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><i><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">by Beth Saadati</span></i> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“Every
story has a villain because <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">yours</i>
does. You were born into a world at war.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">–John
Eldredge, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Waking the Dead</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Once again I googled Jenna’s name.</span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Stop torturing
yourself</span></i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">, I thought<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">. She’s been gone for a few years. You’ll never find anything new.</i></span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Sometimes it’s
good to be wrong</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">In wonder I stared at the screen then clicked on the link.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">There it was. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Brightshadow</i>. An early forty-page version of Jenna’s book I hadn’t realized she’d published
online. The precursor to the unfinished 58,000-word sci-fi/fantasy tale my
fourteen-year-old girl would <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">download from her</span> laptop to mine the day before <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">she died</span>. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Without hesitation or concern about cost, I grabbed my credit
card and ordered printed copies my remaining family could keep. Then, sight
fixed on the manuscript before my eyes, I skimmed pages to read the words Jenna had written in my real-life once upon a time. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">On any other day, Morgan would have fought back for all she was
worth—but on this day she didn’t have any weapons besides her fists, and she
wasn’t stupid enough to think she could overpower Keathan by sheer strength.
Screaming for help was definitely an option, but something kept her silent.
Unlike some people’s perception, Morgan wasn’t all sharp corners and harsh
justice.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>“Go ahead,” she
replied, her now-gentle eyes piercing through every layer of Keathan’s heart.
“But if you really want to find true courage—and I believe you do—then I can
swear to you on my life that hitting me until I’m half-dead isn’t it.” As she
pulled herself to her feet, the last rays of sunlight glinted off her hair and
face. Standing in front of her, Keathan halted his fist in midair. Light
flickered over her slender form, and he wondered why he hadn’t seen just how
beautiful she was before.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">More than 2,000 viewers had met Keathan, <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Jenna's</span> composite
character of the boys who’d bullied at school. And the protagonist, Morgan, who
was . . . her.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“I bet you know how it feels when you want to cry yourself to sleep
but you don’t because you think you have to be strong,” she replied. Keathan turned
towards Morgan. “I’ll bet you know how it feels when you have so much pain that
it settles down into a knot in the bottom of your gut and stays there for weeks
at a time. I bet you know what it’s like when everything hurts so bad that you
try to cry but you can’t.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>You <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">know</i>. The heart knows its own sorrow. And
I’m sorry for calling you a coward that one time. You do have courage and you
do have honor, but you don’t let anyone see it. It’s like you have a wall
around your heart.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Morgan spoke quickly,
for she feared her time to talk was short. “Something happened that hurt you,
so you built a force-field around yourself so nothing could touch you anymore. But
that’s not going to help in the long run. Because if you don’t take the risk of
letting things hurt you, you’ll never be able to let anyone in to help.”</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; tab-stops: 135.0pt; text-indent: 0in;">
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<a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Through <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">her writing</span>,</span> I could hear Jenna's voice<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">. H</span>er heart, so tender at its core, shone through
the tale formed by the middle-school world where she’d longed to belong.</span><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; tab-stops: 135.0pt; text-indent: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">The page-scanning slowed as I soaked up each word.</span></div>
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; text-indent: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“I wasn’t going to kill her or anything,” said Jackson. “You’re just
stupid and impulsive, Caleb Lenox. Besides, she was the prettiest girl I’ve
ever seen. But she was just an orphan—wasn’t worth anything, didn’t belong to
anyone in the village. Nobody would’ve cared.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>“You lie,” said
Caleb. “There are lots of people who would have cared if you did that to <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">any</i> girl. And you didn’t know who she
was. All you knew was that she didn’t belong to this village.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">The story <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">conveyed</span> far more truth than Jenna <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">might have <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">known</span></span>. </span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Far from being an
orphan, she was a daughter of the King, a princess in disguise. </span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">But she had another enemy—one more hateful than a handful of
immature peers—like all of us who’ve been born, often unaware, into a dangerous
STORY, an<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"> invisible</span> war. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Huddled into a ball, Morgan tried to scream as the shadow spotted her
hunched in the corner. She had run away, for how long she didn’t know, but now
she could run no longer. The shadow-man approached, its red eyes swallowed up
in the crimson nothingness of her dreamworld. It came slowly enough so that
Morgan could feel the incredible heat growing more intense with each step it
took.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>“Go away from me,”
she whispered, burying her face deep in her hands. But the Shadow only laughed
and grew taller with her fear. Then it spoke.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>“Princess,” it
rasped, “where are the other Norkkan?” Morgan did not answer. Fire coursed
through her veins instead of blood. She had never known it was possible to feel
so much heat and not be incinerated. Sweat poured off her, pooling and making
little rivulets on the floor. Red haze exploded in her vision, clouding her
mind, causing her head to throb in perfect time with her heart.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>“I don’t know!’ she
yelled at last. “Leave me alone.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">The scene, reflected in other stories <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">that draw us in<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">--</span>whether <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><i>The Chronicles of Narnia, </i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><i>Star Wars, Cinderella, </i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">or </span><i>Lord of the Rings</i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">--</span></span></span></span>was
terribly right<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">. </span></span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">There
<i>is</i> a villain who comes to steal our identity, kill our heart, and destroy our
life. </span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; text-indent: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; text-indent: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“We lost the battle.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>A rat scurried into
the darkness at the echo of Morgan’s voice. “I’m a prisoner in Vyrgran’s
dungeon. If only that were the worst,” she murmured, the words turning into
silent sobs. Morgan rested her head on her knees. Then the door opened with a
low groan. Into her narrow world stormed Morgan’s greatest enemy—Vyrgran, the
evil tyrant. Sinister glee danced across his face when he observed Morgan was,
at long last, broken.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>“So, how goes it for
you now, princess?” he asked, running his fingers through her hair. Morgan
didn’t move.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>“Just leave me to
die,” she whispered. “I’m your worst enemy, after all.” There was a tiny <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">plink</i> as a diamond-shaped tear fell to
the floor. Vyrgran saw it and chuckled quiet.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>A strange,
disconnected thought flitted through her head: <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">How could things have gone so wrong?</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">How <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">could</i> things have gone so wrong<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">?</i>
</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">That question may haunt me for
the rest of my life. After all, Jenna loved and understood STORY—perhaps more
than any student, minus one, that I’ve taught.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">She knew about interweaving plotlines and obstacles to be faced. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">She knew the best stories <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">contain</span>
complexities <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">that</span> unfold over time. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">She knew the necessity of character growth and theme. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">And, she knew the protagonist gets
wounded in the battle but triumphs in the end—often through things foreshadowed
yet unforeseen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: normal; text-indent: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 10.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Morgan caught herself with her burned hands and winced in pain. Then
she felt hands under her shoulders, strong hands that lifted her up and set her
gently back on her feet.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>“A princess should
not go unattended,” the voice said. It was a boy-man’s voice. At first Morgan
thought it must be one of the servants and turned to thank him. She found
herself staring into his eyes—eyes that did not belong to any servant in
Moriasta. There was no possible way she could ever mistake those green-gray,
sea-colored eyes. She had seen them only once before, but she would never, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">could</i> never forget.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>“You came,” she
whispered. “It’s you. You’re here.” </span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">If
only s<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">he'd </span>remembered her real-life story was still being written, with
chapters yet to come, <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">instead of</span> stopp<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">ing</span> it too soon. </span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">And held onto the hope that<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"> the King <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">does</span>, in time, show that <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">he's here and </span>prove his promises true.</span></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"> </span></b></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">by Beth Saadati</i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">. </span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Told through Jenna’s eyes. Literary
license was taken with the point of view. </span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "times new roman" , serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">The details about her
graduation day, however, are all true.</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I peek through
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between heaven and earth is thinner than I’d thought.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Classmates and their
families enter the arena downtown. It’s where, in kindergarten, I sat in the
upper deck beside Mom and laughed, amazed, as we watched the circus perform. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">T</span>his morning<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"> th<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">at same</span> arena hosts</span> a ceremony I should be at.</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Today I graduate from high school—three and a half years
after I took my last breath.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">The band I was once
part of plays “Don’t Stop Believin’,” while Southside High’s principal leads my
grandpa, parents, sister and brother to front-row seats. A moment later Mr.
Brooks introduces Mom and Dad to their ROTC escort—an ESCORT—named Brandon.
I’ll bet they hadn't expected that. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I love seeing them
shown honor. The reason for it is what I hate.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Mom fixes her sight
on my empty chair marked by a white bow and the cap and gown I’ll never
wear. Then “Pomp and Circumstance” commences, and my classmates file by. I look
twice. They’ve changed from 14-year-old teens into young women and men. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">As Delia, one of my
favorite school friends, walks past, she notices Mom, smiles b<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">ig</span>, and waves.
Thankful, I want to hug her for doing what I no longer can.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Next come the opening
comments, the ACT word of the day. Resiliency: being capable of recovering from
or adjusting easily to misfortune or change. Dad lowers his head. It hurts to
see. Resiliency is what <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Dad</span> wanted for me. It’s what<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"> Mom and he </span>now need. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Afterwards,
Southside’s chorus sings “I Was Here.” And I'm reminded again.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Katie, a middle-school
friend—does she remember the assigned project we did?—delivers the valedictory
address. Another friend, Lilly, gives the salutatory speech. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“To Lauryn and Jenna,”
she says, “thank you for loving us. We’re walking the stage with you today.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Why did I think it
didn’t matter if I left? My fellow students haven’t forgotten. I’m still
missed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Mom keeps glancing at
my peers in their black gowns adorned with honor cords, medals, and the white
International Baccalaureate stole I would have put on. Every few seconds she brushes
away tears as she pictures the place where I ought to be.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">A couple minutes
later Brandon motions to my parents. They follow him around the back of the
stage, climb the steps to the platform, and wait. Lauryn’s name is called. Then
mine. Mom walks toward Mr. Brooks. With compassion in his eyes, he holds out an
honorary diploma that bears my name. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“Thank you,” she whispers.
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Mom and Dad face the
photographer and try to force a grin. A sad, close-lipped smile is the best
they can give. Mine, on the other hand, would have lit up the room. If only I
could somehow step back in.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">As they return to
their seats, my classmates <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">be<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">gin their procession a</span></span>cross the stage. Mom is trembling. Though
this time it’s noticeably less, I’ve seen <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">it happen to her</span> twice before—at my
funeral and on the night of my death. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Two high school peers
whose words had cut to my core stand in line—whose words I now know were lies.
The truth is I <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">was</i> pretty. I <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">was</i> intelligent. I <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">had</i> friends who cared.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Mom can’t stop
watching as their names are <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">announced</span>. Each one halts twice for a photograph, smiling
as if nothing has changed in their world. They pass in front of Mom without
meeting her gaze while her lips mouth <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">I choose to forgive</i>. Again. And again. And again.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Finally the
alphabet’s end nears—“S” always follows “R”—and one name, mine, is left unsaid.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">In a few minutes the
assistant superintendent speaks those long-awaited words: “Graduates, you may
move your tassels.” My classmates toss their caps and let out a happy shout.
And, once more, the band plays its songs.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">If I had paraded by
in the recessional, I would have sent <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">my parents</span> another smile and given <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">my siblings</span> a
victory sign. Instead, I’m left indebted to the high school teachers I most adored.
To my youth group leader, Oliver—technically Mr. Wong—who clasps Mom’s hand. To
Mr. Paddenburg, who stops to hug her in a tight embrace that says more than any
words can. Then Mr. Brooks <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">transfers</span> my tassel to Mom, along with the empty chair’s
white rose. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Q</span>uietly weav<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">ing</span> <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">their</span> way through throngs of jubilant, selfie-snapping folks<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">, my family</span> carr<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">ies</span> my
keepsakes—the honorary diploma, program, tassel, and rose. But it’s what they
don’t have that causes me to cry. They’re leaving without their graduate.
They’re returning home one family member short. </span>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">They’re done
journeying through my last three high school years, well-aware of the classes, school
dances, AP tests, and social gatherings that I <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">wasn't at</span>. They’ll never know which college
I would have attended. What my revised manuscript would have looked like when I
published my book. Whom I might have married. Whether I would have birthed a
daughter or son. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">From this point on, they
won’t know what milestones I would have reached. Or when. </span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I didn’t <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">really </i>want
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">It’s said that suicide
is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Had I known then what I now do,
I’d still be here. Telling and writing stories. Holding <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">the </span>diploma I'd earned.
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Beth Saadatihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02714466010215082644noreply@blogger.com50tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688516975749389825.post-47231387597212205272016-04-28T11:33:00.001-04:002016-04-28T11:33:13.307-04:00Suicide's 7 Lies: The Letter My Daughter Left Behind<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“Given the opportunity, Jenna wouldn’t make the same choice
again. But she also wouldn’t want her death to be in vain. She would want us to
learn from it so we can live as overcomers. As victors. Her letter and writings
are a rare gift.” -Dr. David Cox, counselor</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">A 14-year-old daughter’s suicide note? A <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">gift</i>? My thoughts reeled the day after
Jenna’s death as a few close friends, my husband, and I braced ourselves for
the reading of the three-page letter police had discovered on her thumb drive. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">In shock, I heard the false accusations that had snaked
their way into Jenna’s mind. Since then, I’ve reread the letter a hundred times
and silently answered seven of its lies.</span></div>
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Family and Extended Family,</span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">I’m
really sorry for leaving you like this. Honestly I am. During the last few
months of my life I was incredibly depressed. You just didn’t notice since I
put up a good front most of the time.</span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">You
probably want to know why on earth I decided to do this. Well, for some reason,
ever since I turned twelve I’ve realized something—I was always a loser. Sure,
I had a few friends, but overall everyone either ignored me, thought I was
stupid, or outright hated me.</span></i></div>
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#1</span></i></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">: I’m a loser. </span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">You
weren’t, Jenna. You were spectacular, as your science teacher said. Lots of
people liked you. Many of them <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">really</i>
liked you. It’s just that, when depression settled in, it blinded you from seeing
who you truly were, tainted your perception of the way you thought your peers
viewed you, and deceived you into thinking others didn’t care. </span></div>
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know what’s wrong with me to make me so unpopular. Yeah, I’m not pretty, but
look at Eleanor Roosevelt, Dolly Madison, and some other girls I know. Nothing
stops them from having happy lives.</span></i></div>
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#2: </span></i></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">I’m too unattractive or unpopular
to be loved. </span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">What
teenage girl—or woman of any age—doesn’t struggle to feel like she measures up
to the images that surround her? The truth is you were beautiful, even during
those awkward early teen years. But even if you hadn’t been, your immeasurable
worth has nothing to do with external beauty or any social-ladder rung.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></b><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></i></span></div>
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the end, I began to think that maybe I suffered from clinical depression. Well,
maybe. So what could I do about it? Stay on Prozac all my life? Like that would
work.</span></i></div>
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#3: </span></i></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">Depression is a hopeless fight.
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teen years, when a few difficult months can feel eternity-long, are especially hard.
And depression is real. Many teens <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">and</i>
adults struggle with it; it’s not something to be ashamed of. But depression also
whispers a false narrative. It lies. An anti-depressant—sometimes needed only
for a season—could have helped. Or counseling. Or something else. How I wish
you had told us. Told <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">someone</i>. We
would have battled the depression with you until you made it through. </span></div>
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Dad, life will be easier now that you have one less child to pay for.</span></i></div>
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#4: </span></i></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">I’m a burden. </span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">Do
you have any idea what your dad and I would give to have college tuition and
medical school bills to pay? No price tag can be put on the value of one’s
life. You weren’t a burden. You were our joy.</span></div>
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I’ve already accomplished my purpose and it’s time for me to go.</span></i></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">Lie
#5: </span></i></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">I’ve fulfilled my reason for
being here. </span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">You
accomplished a lot in your short 14 years. But there was so much more—plans
to give you a future and hope. It’s not even what you would have done though.
It’s who you <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">are </i>and the lives you
would have touched that can’t be replaced.<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">
</i>You’ve left a hole that no one can fill. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></i></span></div>
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get it across how sorry I am, but I’m not strong like you. I just couldn’t hold
on any longer.</span></i></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">Lie
#6: </span></i></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">I can’t hold on.</span></b><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">Beloved, all of us struggle. We get hurt.
We’re often broken and weak. Do you know how many times I’ve been face down, in
tears, before the Father since you left? I'm not that strong. But God is <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">here</i>. He steps in. The promise is true:
He never leaves or forsakes us. It’s enough to hold on one day at a time. </span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">To
conclude, I’m sorry you guys will have to get over my loss. Really, it’s not
that hard. It’s not like I’m unsaved or went on a killing spree or had that
many friends. </span></i></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">Lie
#7: </span></i></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">No one will miss me when I’m
gone.</span></b><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;"> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">Having even one faithful friend in this world is a treasure.
A gift. You had far more. But . . . <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">it’s</i>
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">not that hard</i>? It’s
beyond-imagination hard. There are reminders of you everywhere I go. Your
absence hurts. When you ended your life, it killed a part of everyone who loved
you. The saying is right: Suicide is a life sentence for those who are left
behind.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri;">Your presence—here—mattered far more than you knew. If only
you hadn’t bought into the lies. Because you were loved, and we’ll <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">never</i> stop missing you.</span></div>
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delivered the devastating news about my daughter before I could face what I
hadn’t yet been able to do. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Once upon a time I’d taken pride in meticulous organization
and the gleaning of anything unused. Not anymore. I could no longer step into
my side of the small walk-in wardrobe. Overflowing with baskets, bags, and
boxes, my bedroom closet heaved and swelled like a dam about to burst.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">The tangible memories of what once was engulfed me. Jenna’s
trophies, plaques, awards. Special logo tee-shirts. Her marching band hat.
The white blouse she wore to play Juliet in an eighth-grade skit. A ballet
dress she’d twirled in, a pearl bracelet presented to her on the evening of her
only formal dance. School papers. Funeral cards. Notes. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">And so much more—all of it screaming <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Jenna was here.</i><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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closure, except closure is for bank accounts. It was never meant for love.</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">With a sickening feeling I sorted—my only saving grace the perfectly
timed FedEx delivery of a Swarovski necklace I’d never expected to receive from <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">a group of</span> friends. My hands trembled as I read the card: “We
hope this gift will remind you that you and Jenna may be separated for a time,
but she’s still the shining center of your heart. She feels your love circling
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I clasped the pendant around my neck as my heavenly Father
whispered, “I know it hurts. You’re not alone. I’m here.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">While sweet tears slid down my face, I emptied my college
trunk of teaching curriculum I’d written. Then I began to repack it, tenderly
positioning each reminder of Jenna and hoping every memory I needed to keep
would somehow fit. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">One month later I
walked into Riverside High School. Although only in seventh grade, my younger
daughter, Christa, had been selected to play in Greenville’s All-Region and
All-County bands. The familiar sight comforted me. Happy memories from four
years ago returned from when I’d come to hear Jenna perform during her
eighth-grade year. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I headed toward
the auditorium. To the left stood a souvenir-stacked table. I picked up an
overpriced tee-shirt and, on the back, located Christa’s name before returning
it to its place. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Moving down the
line, I saw the boxes of preprinted plaques and recalled the unfair parental
trick. I knew better than to find my daughter’s and pick it up—knew that after
reading the inscription I wouldn’t want to put it back regardless of its
outrageous amount.</span></div>
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decided to search.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">My eyes scanned
the alphabet’s end: Alex Tedrow, Erich Threlkeld, Ethan Wells—teens I’d known
from when Jenna was in band. Then it hit me like a punch to the gut. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Jenna should have
been a senior. Her name most likely would have been there. Chances are she
would have concluded the concert with the senior ensemble’s <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Star Wars</i> excerpts, and beamed with sisterly
pride when Christa’s junior ensemble opened with John Williams’ theme song. In
the midst of healing and closure—if you can call it that—I shuddered to think
I’d forgotten.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Needless to say, I
fingered the plaque and re-palmed the shirt, continued to the checkout, and
chose to go home a little poorer. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Following her
performance, I handed Christa the bag. As she pulled out the mementos, she smiled
and said, “I wasn’t expecting you to buy both of these.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Neither was I. But
Christa deserved the gifts; she was worth more than they cost. And, the obvious
absence of Jenna’s name was accompanied by a heart-cry—to Christa and the
others whose names lined the shirt—that said <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">stay</i>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;"><i><span style="font-family: "times" , "times new roman" , serif;">by Beth Saadati</span></i> </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">It was a gathering I’d neither expected—nor wanted—to host.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">From 5-9 p.m. the Mackey Mortuary visitation line refused to
end. Truth be told, I didn’t want it to. In order to stand, I needed the
comforting presence of family and friends.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">One after another they paused then passed by. From Miracle
Hill Ministries, where my husband worked. The places where I taught. City Church.
My daughter’s schools. Jenna’s extra-curricular activities—orchestra, Awana,
homeschool co-op, Upward and rec-league sports. And, at the end, the entire
Southside High School marching band.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Beautiful faces met my gaze with unspoken questions and
tears. With tenderness, “I’m sorry” was said again and again. A scent-blend of
perfume and cologne lingered on my clothes as I cherished the warmth of held
hands and hugs.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">And I cried when a friend whispered the words I’d begun to
doubt: “You were a good mom.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">But the unexpected occurred when John Burdick—Sterling
School’s science teacher everyone loved, whom Jenna had confided in and
considered a friend—and his wife, Kathy, stood <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">there</span>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“John’s <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">number</span> is in the school directory,” Kathy said. “When
things settle down in a couple of months and people stop coming around, contact
us. We’ve lost a child too.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I tucked those words away, journeyed through the weeks, and
took too long to call. Seven months later, however, I <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">picked up the phone</span>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">John and Kathy issued an instant invitation to hang out at
their house. While their 22-year-old son delighted and distracted my young kids
with Mario Kart, we talked. About <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Jenna's</span> after-school conversations
and the familiar teen struggles she’d shared. About the happy memories we had of
her and how it seemed wrong that she was gone.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">The hours sped by. My husband, Komron, joined us after work.
The Burdicks ordered pizza, then John asked the question few dared: “How are
the two of you doing?”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">We reiterated what our counselor had said—that the death of
a child takes its marital toll. She’d cautioned us against blaming one another as
we chased the elusive “why.” She’d warned us we’d grieve in different ways, at
different times, and often feel unknown. She’d encouraged us to share the deep
grief with other trusted friends, because it was too much for a spouse alone to
bear. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I’d heeded the wise advice. Nevertheless, home, with
memories of Jenna everywhere I turned, was often the hardest place to reside.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">John listened and nodded his head. Then he told the story of
losing his firstborn nine-month-old son, Jonathan, twenty years ago. Fresh
tears fell as he recounted giving his namesake a ride in the baby trailer
attached to his bike when a drunk driver struck.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“The grief changes shape,” said John. “You’ll never get over
it, but you’ll get through it. And, while I may not be a happier person, I
believe I’m a better person. For one thing, I treasure my
students more, because I know how precious life is.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Then he smiled and looked at his wife. “Also, I stayed
married, because there’s no one who would know our son the way Kathy did. There
would never be anyone else who had walked through that with me.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">This time I was the student, sitting at the feet of the
teacher Jenna adored. I pulled a tiny black notebook from my purse and wrote down
the perfect words spoken at just the right time. It was what I needed to hear
then. It’s what I remind myself of now.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">From <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">a daughter's</span> three-year absence, part of my
identity and future is temporarily gone. Feelings of helplessness arise from having
been unable to protect and provide. Triggered anger, guilt, sorrow, and despair
sometimes litter my marriage with emotional distance and conflict that
shouldn’t be there.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Nevertheless, Komron has chosen to stay. So have I. Because
too much has already been lost. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Is it easy? No. But we need each other. Like John said,
there will never be anyone else. However messy marriage gets after a child’s
death, with the grace God provides, this, at least, can be one vow—one
covenant—kept.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: 12.0pt;">At 10 p.m. my husband, Komron, said goodnight to our
birthday boy. </span></span></div>
<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">Then it was my turn to finish Josh’s preferred routine. “It’s
because he likes to save the best for last,” I said with false conceit.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I stepped onto a stool to reach his top bunk. After a day of
no school, extra screen time, nerf wars with friends, Chicago-style pizza,
Cook-Out shakes and a Minion-decorated cake, I expected to see a smile as big
as the moon. Instead, he was snarling, growling, about to transform into the
Hulk.</span>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“What’s wrong?” I asked.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Josh climbed down the ladder. A second after I sat on the
floor, seventy pounds plopped onto my lap. A couple of minutes passed. With arms
crossed and brow knotted, Josh said nothing. Then he yelled. “Why do I have to be
so greedy inside?” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Confused, I held my tongue.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“You’re not greedy,” I finally said. “Usually you’re quite
content.” The scowl lining his face showed me he wasn’t convinced. “Is it
because you had a great day, but you’re not completely happy with it?”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Under his breath he muttered. “Yeah.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“There’s a greedy part in all of us,” I said. “Here’s what
helps me. I try to remember things I’m thankful for rather than focusing on what
I may not have. Does that help?”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“Not really.” For a moment his gaze met mine. “There’s a big,
empty place inside me. Like something isn’t right.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">At a loss for what to say, I tucked him back into bed, prayed
for him, and planted a kiss on his forehead before once again telling him goodnight.
Then I crossed the hall to my bedroom, hoping to catch some much-needed zzz’s.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“What’s going on with Josh?” asked Komron. Frustrated by my
inability to parent my son through his pain, I recited the conversation and
tried to explain. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“Josh is too young to make the connection,” Komron said, “but
it’s the grief. It’s about Jenna.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Of course. Why hadn’t I thought of it? Of the last birthday he
had with his oldest sister, when they played Lego Star Wars on the Wii. Of the
way she adored and doted over him. Of the way she was always<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> there</i>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I, too, was well-acquainted with the anger suicide leaves.
Without an invitation, words Jenna had left in her parting note echoed in my
mind: <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">I’m sorry you guys will have to get
over my loss. Really, it’s not that hard.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">My jaw tightened. Not that hard? <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">The constant replaying,</span> forgiv<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">ing,</span>
and unanswered questions<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">?</span> <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">It's</span> a</span> lifetime of hard. How I hated the lie that had wormed its way into Jenna’s
head and blinded her <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">from</span> truth. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">Fifteen minutes later Josh descended the ladder with a
thud. The familiar footsteps followed, then Josh entered my room.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“I can’t sleep,” he said.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“Would it help if I slept in the extra twin bed?” </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">He nodded his head. I followed Josh and waited
for him to climb up to his top bunk. Standing on tiptoe, I peered through
the wooden slats.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“I think I was wrong,” I whispered, “about what might be
bothering you.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“Then what is it?”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">“When Jenna died, it left a big hole in our hearts. It’s not
your fault. She loved you. A ton. She should have been here today to celebrate.”
I paused. “This isn’t how I want it to be for you. It’s not how I want it to be
for any of us.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">By the glow of the hall light, my son’s anger dissolved in
the dark as a stream of silent tears slid down his cheeks. I stepped up on the
stool, wrapped my arms around him, and held him close. In less than ten
minutes, he’d fallen asleep.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">I pulled the blanket up over his shoulders then <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">s<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">nuggled</span></span>
under the twin bed <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">quilt</span>. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">If only Jenna
had realized how much hurt her choice would <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">cause</span>—if only she could have <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">known</span>—she’d still be here, </i>I thought as I <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">shut</span> my eyes.<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"> <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">It’s said there are no tears in heaven. But, if Jenna had
peeked through a porthole and <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">seen</span> the still-bleeding wound, I wouldn’t be surprised
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<![endif]--><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman",serif; font-size: 12.0pt;">by Beth Saadati</span></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><b><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I thought it would never come.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Anticipation knots my stomach as I lean back in the movie
seat while too many previews play. Then, finally, it’s there. The new VII. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Just
like before, it begins with the familiar orchestrated theme song. The “A long
time ago” text. The <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Star Wars</i>
logo over a black field of stars. The yellow slanted words—the opening crawl—summarizing
events that transpired since the last film one generation past. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Suddenly I’m that 9-,
11-, and 14-year-old girl who sat in the theater mesmerized by the original
release of IV, V, and VI. Who listened to the screenplay and soundtrack
records—my treasured Christmas gifts—again and again. Who pounded out John Williams’
score on the piano, the way my son does now, and read through the
Scholastic-ordered book trilogy until the pages were worn. Who talked
all-things Star Wars and quoted movie lines during a fourth-grade sleepover
with a favorite friend until his digital R2-D2 watch blinked 5 a.m.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">On the screen before
me, the tale unfolds. Awed by the seamless merging of new and old, I connect
with characters from the movies I loved. Themes resonate with me—of remaining
faithful to friends, of choosing to fight, of clinging to hope while resolving
to wait. The clock creeps toward midnight but, immersed in story, I stay wide
awake. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Midway through the
movie, however, it hits me. As I watch the saga continue, the 32-year delay
since the release of VI seems barely more than a blip in time. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I turn my head away,
distracted by a thought—that in another 32 years my life on earth will most
likely be coming to its close. Then this forever-wait for the daughter I long
to once again see will be done. And, from that side, the lengthy time-lapse
will seem brief—maybe even shorter than it does right here, right now, looking
back.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I return my gaze to
the screen, still marveling at the mystery—at the tangible hope and reason to
hold on—when the scene appears. The hurt of goodbye. The tender forehead kiss.
The soft words spoken in faith, “We'll see each other again. I believe that.”</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana",sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Tears pool behind my
eyes. For a moment I close them to hold emotion back then whisper the reminder
inside my head. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">It’ll be a long three
decades on this side without you, Jenna. But we'll see each other again.</i></span></span></div>
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there are battles to fight and people to love. But of one thing I am sure. </span></span></div>
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I do see my daughter, time will be bridged as the story moves on. The long-awaited
sequel will captivate me even more than <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Star
Wars</i> has this night. And I will not be disappointed.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Beth Saadatihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02714466010215082644noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688516975749389825.post-25317542799769539032015-12-09T11:23:00.000-05:002015-12-11T17:31:12.576-05:0011 Things We Ought to Say When Someone's Lost a Loved One<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Most of us have experienced the awkward situation. Someone
we know has lost a loved one, and we<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">'re unsure of</span> what to say. Not wanting to
utter anything hurtful, we stay away. Or, we attempt to communicate around the
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Although everyone’s grief journey is unique, based on the
loss of my teenage daughter, here are some words I’ve found to be safe—even
healing—to speak:</span>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">1. I’m sorry. </span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Or, <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I wish it weren’t
this way for you. </b>This may sound ordinary. Unoriginal. Even cliché. But,
oftentimes, there really are no adequate words. To the one who’s grieving, this
simple phrase says far more than most people know. And, if tears come, please
don’t apologize or hold them back. Offer them as an unspoken gift as well.</span></div>
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the pain of your loss. </span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">It’s okay that you
don’t. That honesty—and acknowledgement that I hurt—still comforts.</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">3. Her life
made/is making a difference. </span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">If you
recall a specific memory, share it. For example, a year ago, Katilyn, 18, told
me how much it had impacted her when my daughter invited her to a game night,
made her feel welcomed, and, though Jenna didn’t yet know her well, introduced
her as a friend to other teens there. Hearing about it brought me joy. I want
to remember, to be reminded, to know that Jenna’s life mattered when she was
here . . . and that it still does.</span></div>
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_________ (mom, daughter, sister, friend, etc.).</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> Or, <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">It wasn’t your
fault. </b><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I needed to hear this then. I
still do. Too often it’s easier to recall all I wish I would have done
differently than it is to remember what I might have gotten right.</span></div>
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Remind me that, regardless of how disheartening the unexpected plot twist may
seem, the story will have a satisfying ending. Just don’t say “soon.”</span><span style="background: black; border: none black 1.0pt; color: black; font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 0pt; layout-grid-mode: line; mso-ansi-language: X-NONE; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: X-NONE; mso-border-alt: none black 0in; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-language: X-NONE; mso-font-width: 0%; padding: 0in;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"></span></div>
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you.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> Or, if it’s not too awkward, <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I love you. </b>Like “I’m sorry,” this
simple phrase speaks volumes. Most of us don’t verbalize the words enough. And,
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thinking about (or praying for) you. </span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A week ago one of Jenna’s classmates left the
following comment on the blog: “I have been thinking about your family for the
past several days and decided to check whether you had posted anything here
lately.” The words encouraged me. Why? Because, three years later, I don’t
expect others to remember. When they let me know they do, I feel less alone.</span></div>
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expecting to hear “fine”—I can understand why. When the person is sincere,
however, and willing to receive whatever I may say, I treasure these words. It
puts the ball in my court, giving me the freedom to say as much or as little as
I feel like sharing. Also, it communicates, “I want to listen because I care.” That
love unlocks me. Not wanting to burden others with my grief, I probably won’t
initiate the conversation. But if a friend asks, chances are I’ll talk. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">9. Ask open-ended
questions about the one who’s gone. </span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Jenna
is still my beloved daughter, even though she’s no longer here. I welcome the
opportunity to remember with others—to recall moments of laughter and
joy—just like other parents who like to reminisce about their kids.</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">10. Share
perspective. </span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">No preaching or condemnation, please. But,
spoken gently without judgment, personal insight can bring understanding.
Here’s what I mean. A few months after Jenna’s death, the mom of one of Jenna’s
classmates stopped by. She asked how I was and listened. When I made reference
to some school-related incidents I’d read about in writings my daughter had left
behind, the mother said she could relate to Jenna's pain. She, too, had felt the
intense desire to belong and be accepted by the popular crowd—in a way neither
her own daughter nor I had. This helped me think differently and opened my eyes
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underestimate the power of a hug. </span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Since
Jenna’s death, the embrace-me-tight type of hug has often communicated as much
as any words can. Don’t worry. It doesn’t come across as a romantic gesture.
Rather, it leaves me feeling less set apart—less like a leper that no one would
want to approach. Even more, it touches the girl inside me who’s felt a little
lost and needs to know others are close.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Regardless of what you choose to say—even if the
well-intentioned words come out wrong—say <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">something</i>.
Will it be uncomfortable and difficult? Probably. As a longtime friend said
after listening to a radio interview I gave, “I never really knew what happened.
I was too shy to ask, because in the moment of asking I [was afraid I] might
reopen a wound.” <a href="http://www.blogtalkradio.com/christian-devotions/2015/07/31/when-bullying-leads-to-suicide-with-beth-saadati-on-cd-speak-up">(radio broadcast link)</a></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">I appreciate and respect that. What I didn’t realize before
Jenna’s death is that thoughts of a lost loved one are seldom far away. The wound
is already open. Acknowledging that—whether through spoken words, a short note,
or even a text—however, can help it heal.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Whatever you do, resist the urge to pull away. Instead, be
courageous and come close. Don’t hesitate to talk. Seize the opportunity and solidify
the friendship . . . so the elephant won’t wedge it apart.</span></div>
Beth Saadatihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02714466010215082644noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3688516975749389825.post-20953206350848771082015-12-02T11:23:00.000-05:002015-12-03T08:13:49.512-05:0010 Things We Shouldn't Say to Someone Who's Lost a Loved One<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Holiday season cheer tends to intensify feelings of grief. So, what should we <span style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">avoid</span> saying to those who have
experienced the death of a loved one? Based on the loss of Jenna, my teenage
daughter, here’s what I would advise:</span></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">1. Time heals all
wounds.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> Sure, grief changes with the passing
of time, and a certain amount of healing comes. But I’ve heard from enough
people to know that, twenty years later, there will be plenty of times when it
still hurts.</span></div>
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to never see my daughter’s face or hear her voice again during the years that
I’m alive? Or see her friends driving, attending dances, going to college, and
someday establishing careers and families of their own, when Jenna’s not here?
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example, even though it’s been twenty-five years since my college graduation,
it seems more like five. So, when I finally see Jenna <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">someday</span>, the skipped years
will probably feel like a hiccup. But, on this end, the thought of a
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still hard to hear, however, because Jenna was fourteen. It wasn’t time for her to go,
and I never got to say goodbye. Plus, like any parent, I naturally long to know
what she’s seeing and experiencing. But there are no texts, no phone calls, no Facebook
posts . . . nothing but a sometimes-unbearable silence.</span></div>
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this question. I wanted to give the noble—the godly—response and say “yes” . .
. but I couldn’t. Because I’d give anything to have Jenna back. Since I can’t
undo her choice, the price of capturing her life, and my grief, in <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">words</i> is worth the time, effort, and
heartbreak it costs if it only speaks to one person. But that—no pun intended—is
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with His sustaining grace. <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">T</span>he words belittle the weight of grief, however, and sound
trite. At Lazarus’ tomb with Mary and Martha, Jesus wept. He sure didn’t quote
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often unspoken, but they’re present nonetheless. I’m neither a counselor nor an
expert on grief, but here’s what I’ve learned from those who are: 1/ Most
Americans don’t know how to mourn what’s been lost. Instead, they stuff
emotions down and move on with life, only to have unresolved grief resurface
years later in ways they’d rather it didn’t. 2/ On average, people <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">mourn</span> an
elderly parent’s loss for a year, a spouse’s death for two years, and a son’s
or daughter’s suicide for four to five years. This is normal. And healthy. 3/ We can’t put a timeframe on grief. Thankfully, joy and healing come,
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accomplished what God had for her to do on earth.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> No, she didn’t. God wanted her <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">here</i>. He had good plans for Jenna and many lives for her to touch.</span></div>
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all to himself.</span></b><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> This comment is beyond my understanding.
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Even though I remember some of the spoken words that s<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">lightly stung</span>, I don’t recall who said them. It’s possible to extend
grace and not take offense. Why? Because those who spoke showed courage. It
would have been easy for them to stay away, but they didn’t. They wanted to say
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">something</i>. They dared to come close. And
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anything we <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">can</i> say to the person
who’s grieving a loss? Or should we, like a recent Facebook meme I saw,
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<![endif]--><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">With another hour left in the race, my legs begin to tire.
My calves start to cramp. The familiar burn sets in, but the South Carolina
inclines still need to be ascended. Every time we go uphill, Rocky picks up
speed.</span>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“What are you <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">doing</i>?”
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">“It’s like pulling off a Band-Aid. You do it fast to get it
over with.” He <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">powers</span> ahead in a challenge to follow then waits for me to catch
up. In wonder, I shake my head . . . and keep on running.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"></span></span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">Two years ago I’d run my first
half marathon to push through grief after my teenage daughter’s death. Last
year I’d run to conquer the course with my running partner, Amy, and her son,
Hansel—one of my favorite students, one of Jenna’s friends. This year I’d
wanted to complete it a third time, although I no longer knew why. </span>
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a wave of grief often crests every few days for the first four years. Nearly three
years in, healing had gradually come. At the end of August, however, a tsunami
hit hard. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Minutes after being told a mother’s daughter was missing, memories
had come rushing back. Details and emotions I’d buried when, for a couple of
long hours, my daughter hadn’t been found. Flashbacks of the unforeseen trauma
from the night my husband and I, with a roomful of friends, were delivered the
devastating news.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">New questions now haunted me. “Why, God? <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">When Jenna was missing, where <i>were</i> you</span>?” Though
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">But a Facebook message arrived from Ohio in the form of a
belated birthday post from Rocky, another favorite former student when he was a
high school freshman and I was twenty-three. Half my lifetime ago he’d led in
YoungLife, served on the newspaper staff, and kept track stats for the team I’d
coached. He’d even been a groomsman in my wedding.</span></div>
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do well to finish</span></i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">.</span></div>
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Let me see what I can do.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">With English essays to grade and
college recommendation letters to write, the new schoolyear kept me busy. But
September was marked by silence. The heart-piercing questions lingered, and God
was uncommonly quiet. </span></div>
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“God isn’t about clarity. He doesn’t answer ‘why.’ Instead, ask Him what He
wants you to learn.” <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">While I battled sadn<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">ess and li<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">es, I </span></span></span>asked. And I waited. </span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";">Yes,</span></i><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman";"> I replied, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">but I’m
only up to eight miles. I saw you just ran seventeen. Maybe I should run
vicariously through you. </i>I failed to confess I was close to quitting. D<span style="mso-bidi-font-weight: bold;">espite the joy of training each Monday with
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on setting up business meetings in Columbia and Charlotte so I can have an
excuse to be in South Carolina. I guess you're just going to have to get busy .
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out was no longer an option, but I still doubted there’d be enough time to adequately
train. Worst of all, the stifling quiet and tough questions remained.</span></div>
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about the 13-mile course. Because he was preparing for a marathon, I asked
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was younger, stronger, faster. This was his first half marathon; not running
his best would come at a cost. He was choosing less . . . so I could achieve
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he points out details I would have missed seeing, dishes out encouragement, and
makes me laugh. Because it’s October 31st, a few runners are dressed in costumes.
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Rocky urges. “We’re not going to let Fred Flinstone beat us. That’s the problem
of running in a pack. You forget that you can go faster.”</span></div>
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with questions. After I finish answering, he grins and says, “While you were
talking, you probably passed fifty people.” Before it seems possible, we’re at
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dad, who’s strategically positioned himself to cheer at different points, Rocky
says, “Did you see the way your dad looked at you? He’s proud of his daughter.” </span><br />
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family<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">,<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">" he s<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">ays.</span></span></span> "They’re here for you too.”</span></div>
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turn into the baseball stadium, round the outfield track, and run through the
chute. I can hardly believe how quickly two hours have passed, how fun it
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classroom in 1992. My track team bulletin board hung behind Rocky and me. On it
were my favorite slogans: She Ran 10,000 Miles Just to Get Here. Push yourself.
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wooden peg beside my bed. I want to remember what God had so gently shown me
through a friend. That, one step at a time, He’s encouraging me to follow,
urging me ahead. <span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">D</span>espite unanswered questions, He is here. Running with
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